Baby scan

So yesterday we had a 16 week scan.. it was amazing. I think it was my favourite one so far!

I honestly love having these scans so fricking much, I wish I could have one once a week to be honest. It's so nice having the reassurance and getting to see how much the baby has grown in the few weeks since we last saw!

It's just incredible that we're able to do these kinds of things. Anyway, the morning was lovey, got up and did half an hour on the exercise bike which I'm trying to do every day. Some days are easier than others..

I then woke Antman up and we both got ready, Ginette (Ant's mum) came over and we set off!

I'd had my usual 3 breakfasts but bloody hell, the whole journey there all I could think was I'm excited but MAN I'm hungry!

We arrived, checked in and mooched about the baby shops whilst we waited for our appointment. I spent a lot of time walking around and drinking cold water which they advice you to do before, which I really hate because I need a wee so quickly after a drink, pregnant or not.. obviously it much worse these days. And I'm really rubbish and dealing with really needing a wee.... wow my life is so hard.

Anyway, we went in and they double checked with us that we did not want the gender out loud and we'd like it written down in an envelope. Which was really reassuring as I was nervous they'd accidentally tell us, but they're clearly used to it.

Me and Ant are having a gender reveal party and I think that they're so common these days that the private scan places and very much accustom to people wanting it written down.

 They put the scanner thing on my belly and baby was there straight away! I know I probably shouldn't be shocked as of course the baby is right there... in my tummy.. but at the other scans we've had they've sort of had to find it because it's been so small (9 week and 12 weeks scans). So I found it mad that it was just right there and a totally different place to last time.

Again, I know to a lot of people I sound stupid but this is all so new and bizarre to me!

Words really cant describe how amazing these scans are to me. I've wanted a baby since I was a little girl, I've always wanted to be a mum and I've always said I want to experience the whole thing. I've always wanted the whole experience of being pregnant and I'm actually there! I still cant believe it.

So they scanner man told me everything looked as it should, we saw the spine, brain, heart and a hand! The hand was insane because you could actually see all the fingers and bones. So cool! But also wow.. I'm actually growing bones in me right now?!

Then the best bit for me - listening to the heart beat. This made me cry, it was just so wonderful hearing it for the first time. My little baby's heart beating inside me. But I quickly stopped myself crying because I thought nooo, I dont want blurry eyes! I need to see the scan as best as I can!

They then told us to look away whilst they checked what gender the baby was, omg I could have got up and put my hands over Ant's eyes. I could see he wanted to look so badly! I had to reach and cover as much as I could. I really thought he was going to look!

Now, I'm not sure if Ginette looked away.. I'm like 90% sure she kept watching and therefore knows the gender of the baby but at the end she said - oh I'm going to wait before knowing, I'll wait until the reveal as well with everyone else. So I think she knows but is pretending she doesnt so that if people question her she can say she doesnt know. So I'm glad either way! I dont mind if she knows and pretends she doesnt or if she really doesnt know. Just as long as me and Ant dont find out until the reveal which is SO bloody far away.

Okay, so then we had a 4D scan, just a quick one that comes with the scan package.

This was so cool! To see this actual little human moving around. So mad to see properly formed arms and legs and nose etc.. At first the baby had its arms crossed in front of its face, which was kinda cool to be honest. Looked gangsta.

This whole experience was awesome and I'm sure I'll remember it forever and ever.

Once we left I, of course bombarded my mum with all the photos and to be honest even though I've stressed and worried so much about her and Ginette knowing the gender early, just because I dont want to accidentally find out.. I wanted my mum to know straight away!!

So I messaged her to say that all the photos were on this link they gave me but I couldnt look because the scan pics of the sex was on there too.. and offered her the link if she wanted to go on and have a guess... I wasnt sure if she'd say yes and within seconds she was like GIVE ME THE LINK NOW!

I sent it to her and straight away she messaged to say she knew because it was written on there as well. So she knows! Argh! So at least one person (other than the scanner people) in this world know's whether me and Ant are having a son or a daughter!!

I don't know why really but I really think I'm having a boy. I've just thought from the beginning it's a boy. I have no evidence... but mark my words.

We headed back to the home area and got some muuuuch needed lunch from a really nice pub near us. I had a massive pie with creamy mash and veg and I cant even describe how daaaaamn good it was! Man I love food so much.

We then headed home all absolutely stuffed. Ginette and her husband Albert stayed for a cuppa and then Ant looked at me and said, Lissssssss can we do absolutely nothing for the rest of the day. (he was hungover from the work do he'd had the night before) I honestly have never been so happy in my life, hahaha.

We literally spent the rest of the day snuggled up on the sofa watching TV and then ordered thai food.

Best. Day. Ever!!!

Stuff!

Again.. I've looked back over pics to try and remind myself what's been going on recently..

There's lots of roast dinners as me and Ant admitted we'd only ever made cheat versions.. so we decided we best get doing it properly as Christmas is coming up and we were home together for the first time in 5 years! Every year we've spent Christmas day with my family.. I know it sounds selfish but it's only because my family properly party! And Ant's family don't always even have a day where everyones together because of partner's families and people working etc.

Of course we spend Christmas with Ant's family too but Christmas day is usually at my mums wearing fancy dress and getting veeeeerry merry!

But this year me and my bro's have said we'd do Christmas with our partners/their families. I won't lie, this killed me. First year ever I wont be with my mum, genuinely makes me so sad.

Anyway, we've organised a weekend we can all do, which is the weekend before Christmas, so it's not so bad because we'll all be there, doing the same thing just on a different day!

Anyway, me and Ant been stuffing our faces with roast dinners and it's been bloody amazing and I can't wait for more FOOD.

So in my pics.. there's food, nails as me and Lois get them done together every few weeks which is lush cos its usually so boring but when you got your bestie it's great!



There's pics of me and Ant and Christmas tree we put up at ours, we put some Christmas tunes on and got right in the mood. It was a lot of fun and then Ant dragged us out shopping to get more decorations, I wasnt up for it massively as I had a banging headache (common these days!) and I thought we had enough but I have to say he chose awesome decorations and everyone comments on them!






OH! Massive news actually is that my older brother Adam and his fiance, are expecting.. TWINS!

This is absolutely amazing amazing news because they've been trying to conceieve for so long and they want it so much. I feel so bad when I told them I was expecting - even though they were, of course, lovely and happy for me.

Adam announced it by saying in the group chat that he had some news... left us hanging then said 'Lissa's midget is gonna have a cousin' SO typical!

I then rang him and just ended up being like ARGHHHHHHH down the phone hahaa, I am so happy for them. I then rang my mum to pretty much do the same thing and she admitted she'd known for ages! And hated keeping it a secret. I'd actually been interrogating her earlier in the month but she didnt give in... and I believed her.

Erika is 7 weeks behind me and with twins they can come early and with single pregnancy I could be late.. so our babies could be so close in age! Just wish we all lived closer...

More baby stuff (there's gonna be none stop baby stuff now not gonna lie) is that I went to lunch with Ant's mum and Ant's niece Mila recently which was lovely and she is honestly the happiest baby I've ever met! She's such a delight and honestly, it makes me just hope and wish our baby is like her. She sleeps loads and is constantly smiling and more than happy for interaction all the time. I jut love her!



Ermm.. what else is new.. works fine.. happy as always. I really love it there and hope that I can remain working there after my maternity but I dont know how it would work.. something for future Lissa to deal with though.

We got new beds! This is exciting as we've needed them for ages and Ant just got a bonus and I've been saving just in general and so we splashed out (a little) on new beds and they're sooo nice. We went from a double to a super king in the main room and oooooomg its heaven!

Twice since we got the beds have we just spent all evening after dinner lay in it watching tv till I fall asleep, what a life to lead!

Catch up

So as usual I have neglected my blog and my mum has sent me messages moooooooaning..

I looked back over my pics to try and remember what has been happening since my last post and it has been a while!

Just after the weekend at my mums me and Ant had our 12 week scan.. I was so nervous and excited for this because we'd seen the baby at 9 weeks which was awesome, but it's always nerve wracking because you just want everything to be okay! I also havent really had many symptoms of feeling pregnant.. so no sickness and just not a lot so that each day I'm like yep.. definitely still pregnant. But after googling, speaking to other pregnant ladies and mums I realised that lack of symptoms or sudden loss o symptoms is totally normal. Your hormones level go up and down all the time.. so many people say I should think myself lucky that I dont feel any different!

Anyway, me and Ant went off excitedly to the scan and it was just as we'd hoped! All looking as it should and seeing the little nug as we call it (we call our cats chickens and each other chickens and thought it quite cute that our little baby growing is a little chicken nugget hahaha!) was incredible.

The baby was sat in a funny position so the scanner lady (I should know the formal name of these people sorry!) was finding it hard to do her checks.. which was fine for us because we got extra time just watching this lil nug move around and just TRY and make it feel more real.

We got the reassurance we'd wanted and new pics and we left really really happy! I had to go for blood tests so she sent me upstairs in the hospital.. I thought I'd be in and out but it was going to be a 2 hours wait! So we went to Tesco which is opposite the hospital and got breakfast in the cafe. It was lovely because we were both beaming.

We then went over to my bestie Lois' work as she's just round the corner, and gave her one of the scan pictures. Lois is my ultimate best friend in the world and so she's fully invested in this child, she cried when I gave her the picture, just love her! We caught up and me and Ant went into the sensory room (Lois works in a children's centre) and imagined us taking our little one there one day!

We headed back, waited around for about 10 mins and got the blood test done - worked out really nicely actually as we got to bunk off work and spend the day together.

Back to work after this and I put my picture up in the General Slack channel which is an instant messaging app we all have at work.

I was so nervous but I just wanted everyone to know as I didnt want it to be a secret anymore! I put the picture up with the caption - I've never been one for subtlety and so here it is! #preggers.

I got a great response, everyone congratulating me and a few shocked faces! The team at my work are great and I really feel like I get on with everyone so it was pretty awesome to be honest.

The next day my director had bought me the book 'what to expect when you're expecting' which is really sweet.

I was going to wait to announce my pregnancy on social media for Xmas but I just couldnt wait to I added it to FB and Instagram and again.. got such a lovely response. I feel so lucky!

Family fun

So a week since I last caught up! I have to say, I am probably just going to write the weekends on here as I don’t do much after work in the week! But if I remember something fun I’m sure I’ll add it. 

So last Friday evening me and Ant set off to Taunton to visit my Mum and Andy. Adam, Connor and Emily were also going which is awesome. Just a shame Erika couldn’t make it as she was working. 

So we arrived Friday and did the usual hellos and got ourselves a drink! Mine being a coke for the first time ever. Mum showed us the newly decorated room in the mansion darling. Which I loved as the feature wall is my fave colour. So obviously me and Ant bagged it! (Even if I didn’t really sleep there as he snores like a trooper!) I then got straight into my jammies and headed downstairs to join the crew. 

We caught up, played pool and had such a laugh.. as usual! Me, Connor and Emily exchanged birthday gifts (let’s be honest she bought mine). They got me such lovely gifts such as baby stuff, a lovely new handbag and earrings.. and I got Connor beers, ball bags socks and willy eye mask! We were supposed to be doing a tenner limit so I thought this was fine haha! I absolutely lost it laughing at Connor putting it on. It looked hilarious.



Connor and Emily also told us they’re moving to Wales, Emily’s family lives there and it’s much more affordable for them. I got a bit upset as I just hate the fact all my family as so far away! But then mum showed me them on the map and we were saying how it’s only this far away (uses finger to show the small amount of space on the picture) and at the same time we said yeah and it you zoomed it’s even closer! Which again we found hilarious and fell about laughing. Oh I love my family so much. 

We stayed up.. well I class this as staying up these days as I’m tired really early! I went to bed about midnight after a much needed social with everyone. 

On Saturday I got up and went downstairs, played with the kitties and help mum in the kitchen tidying up. We chatted and got a brew going. Man, I wish I could do this all the time, really really wish they were just around the corner.. 

Everyone sort of got up one by one and got some breakfast. Adam typically got up last even though he went to bed first. And then he was trying to get mum to make his breakfast even though she was just going out the door! And she does as well, she says I’m gonna be a soft mum... she’s soft as anything. Especially with the boys! She’s gonna be reading this and laughing.. 

Mum and Andy then set off and went for a shop around Taunton. Adam went out to curry’s to get some mouse for his game. Antony and Adam were bonding a lot this weekend over geeky stuff which was really nice actually. 

Then the rest of us set up camp on the sofa is in the living room and watching David Attenborough. It was so lush just to chill with the fam. I had a little snooze on Antony and thought.. life is good. 

After a while, me and Em went into the gym and did a little workout and chatted about life. I get on really well with Emily which is really beaut to have a lil mate as well as my twins other half. 

We then all got ready and headed out for dinner and drinks. Ant had already said to me before we even left.. oh you’ll be putting me to bed later.. I thought uh oh! 

All was good, we went and got mock/cocktails in a bar. Emily wasn’t drinking either so it was kinda nice to not be the only one. Not that it makes too much of a difference as I’m fine until around 10:30haha, party animal! Oh how I’ve changed.. 

There’s were really drunk people in the bar and unfortunately they came and sat right next to us which was also next to a piano and they were ‘playing’ and ‘singing’ I don’t even know the song but mum does cos later on she thought they were different people and loudly said ‘oh at least they’re not singing doe, a dear.. a female dear!!’ And it was them and they started singing it again 2 seconds later hahaha! I totally get this from her cos I say things really loudly about people all the time. Oops! 

After a few drinks and good laughs, we walked over to the restaurant we’d booked. It was nice and cosy and we sat right under the heaters which was great! We ordered our drinks and starters and me and mum managed to try a bit of the curry to see how spicy we’d like it. The food was bloody amazing!! Me and Ant were well up for spicy food, I got hot and he asked for extra hot! Which really worried me.. he was pretty drunk and I just thought he’s gonna regret this. 

To be honest, it was fine! My hot spice was perfect and he said his wasn’t hot enough.. I reckon his was just hot too. But anyway, it was delicious and there was so so much food. Mum convinced me to get some taken away in a doggy bag as I’d left quite a bit and I wasn’t keen as I felt a bit embarrassed. Oh my gaaaawd, I’m so grateful! The curry the next day was everything I needed and more. 

We headed back after stuffing our faces, not to Connor and Andys delight as they wanted to go for more drinks but me and Emily were a bit like... but.. comfy home and pjs! So we headed back. Of course, the girls always win. 

We got back and I got super cosy and settled on a chair I don’t think I moved out of till bedtime. And chatted with everyone and watched them play pool. We talked loads about when mum was pregnant and birth etc (as I’m pregnant). 

We absolutely fell about laughing so much, even the next day I woke up laughing at what Connor said.. 

We were talking about having to birth the placenta and he was like ‘what if you go in there and you have no idea about the placenta (my mum didn’t know!) and you’re pushing and pushing and you’re like omg my liver!!!’ 

Oh my god, it was so funny. It’s probably one of those.. you have to have been there moments but it’s even making me laugh now. 

As expected Antony was really bloody drunk, he’d said he was going to slow down earlier in the night and then proceeded to get a beer at every opportunity and the biggest one available too, haha. We’re both very like this.. when we’re drunk, we’ll just carry on and on drinking even though you could definitely stop as you’re already smashed. But we’ve not mastered this yet. I’m thinking that after having a baby I will and hopefully he will... 

Anyway I asked him to take me up to bed at about 10:30, the shame. I was so tired though and could feel my eyes losing the will. He faffed about for ages and eventually took me up and got a bit soppy about how he’s enjoying my family time and how it’s nice he’s bonded with Adam a lot this time. (God, he’d kill me if he knew this was on here but he’s never gonna read this!)

He went back down and got even drunker and then came crashing up later on. I worry when he’s think drunk cos he gets really paranoid the next day about what he’s said or done, which again I always did too. It’s not nice. 

But all was fine, after lots of sleep and painkillers he just about recovered the next day. We didn’t do a great deal on Sunday, chilled and watched friends until heading off home. 

Another amazing weekend with the fam!!

Fireworks weekend

Sooo after the crazy birthday weekend, we had a couple plans during the week..

Me and Ant went to see my older brother in her new(ish) gaff that we'd not been to see yet. It was a lovely little area, shame its still about an hour away from us. House was awesome size, with loads of potential. I say it like that cos they're in the middle of renovating etc so you can see it's gonna be awesome.

We had a proper nice chilled out evening to be honest, it was really easy to just chat and relax. We ordered pizza which was great cos I am hungry ALL THE TIME at the moment so I really stuffed my face.   

The next evening we went to Nandos with Ant's family which was good fun, I felt a bit rough to be honest and completely knackered but we had a really good time catching up and Ant's lil niece was being passed around the table so it was cute.

Then.. Friday! We didnt have many plans really, just to chill out (my favourite thing to do). Matty popped over as he had bought us these SUPER cute gifts already. Love them! Cant wait to put our lil baby in them. Ant and his friend's are definitely going to turn out baby into a little geek... 

Saturday was another day with not many plans to be honest.. I dropped Antony off at his friends house early so he could watch England lose at the Rugby.

I then went off food shopping to buy loads of fruit and veg as I really need to start eating more healthily as all I ant it carbs and sugar and all the bad(good) food.

I came home, made a smoothie, chilled out and waited for the call to pick Ant up. This came, along with a request to take his mate home as well.. which was fine. So I did that and then we went to Sainsburys as Ant needed more beer for Sat.

Ant is definitely drinking for 2 these days!

Anyways... so we're driving home and I offer Ant some of my babybel.. he pretends to throw it out of the car window and I say to him 'oh noo if you'd have done that I'd have be well upset'.

So what does he do?? He gives me a tiny bit back and then chucks it out of the window! I didn't speak to him the whole rest of the way home.. he did try and say 'I'm sorry babe, I didnt mean to offend, was just a joke!'

I got home and went straight upstairs and sobbed my heart out!! Properly crying, haha... honestly how ridiculous! Ant was so sweet, took me and cuddled me and told me to let all my cries out, even though they were ridiculous.

I started a thread on mumsnet about it and it's got loads of hilarious replies! https://www.mumsnet.com/Talk/pregnancy/3733416-most-ridiculous-thing-you-ve-cried-over-whilst-pregnant

Anyway, I recovered and met Lois for a coffee and we had a lovely little catch up before meeting our other bestie Sarah to go to see the fireworks. 

We had such a laugh and the fireworks were bloody awesome! I watched them on the rides like a proud mother..

We then went and munched a maccies, sat in the car getting fat and headed home!

I waited up for Matty as he was coming round to see Ant and Alex.. but he'd been on a date so I wanted to hear all about it. 

He had an awesome time and you could clearly see he was buzzing which makes me sooooooo happy! 

Sunday I woke up and got cracking with more healthy cooking and smoothie making. 

I've spent most of the day writing all these blogs posts, trying to catch up whilst Ant puts my new exercise bike together as I'd broken mine recenty.  

Right I'm up to date! WOO!

Birthday weekend! (Long post alert!)

So this weekend, I've been looking forward to sooo much! We had so many awesome plans..

Lets start with Friday of course..

Our best friend Matty came round for the evening, we had tuna pasta bake and caught up on life! Matty has had a bit of a hard time lately but I feel like is coming out the other side now.. I wont go into details as this is not for me to discuss on my blog. Me and Ant love this man with our whole hearts and would do anything to make sure he is happy!

So he came over, we ate and chatted which was lovely and we carved pumkins! This was actually a lot of fun, people had said at work that it's tedious and I wouldnt enjoy it much.

But it was hilarious! To Ant nearly cutting his fingers off to me knocking the tooth out of my pumpkin.

We added the pics of Ant's and Matty's to my instagram for a vote and Matty's won! Mine was awful and didn't deserve an insta post.


 

On the Saturday Ant was taking me out to London for a surprise to celebrate my birthday.. we got up, he made us breakfast and we headed out.

Travel was easy peasy and we both listened to Pro Green on the tube.

When we arrived, I still had no clue where we were going but the weather was dry and we were happy as larry! We passed a theatre and I jokingly asked if we were going in.. didnt think much of it till we reached the next theatre down the road which was showing the Book of Mormon which I've always wanted to see.

A few years ago, Ant said we could go and then his group of mates organised all the lads going so he went to see it without me! So years later and he's making up for it.

I was so excited! We had some time and I was starving, Ant said we could go anywhere I liked.. including the amazing Hard Rock Cafe which me and my family love..

But I chose Pizza Hut! (sorry mum... I'm a simple chav muahaa) so we ate our body weight in pizza and went for a beer/coke before the show.

The show was absolutely hilarious!! I can't recommend it enough, I was belly laughing. I have to say, it's not for those who get offended easily.. it's made by the guys who created South Park, so you know their jokes are savage, it was so so good. I want to see it again already!


We went for another beer/coke and headed home, usually we'd go partying, this is the first Birthday since teens I've been so sensible!

But it was a frigging awesome day and I went to sleep a very happy bunny.

Sunday, I literally got up and cleaned/tidied the house, did some cooking and slobbed. The perfect Sunday! (yes even with the house work, it makes me happy haha)

So Monday, my birthday! EEEEEEK. Honestly, I kept forgetting it was my birthday cos I was soo so excited for our first (early scan!)

I woke up about 4am so excited and so ready for the day! Haha, I eventually got out of bed about 6am and got myself in the bath and ready. Woke Antman up at 8am and we had some brekkie and got ready. Ant came upstairs with cupcake (We always waste a big bday cake) and a candle in it singing to me. God I love him!

We head off to Wimbledon, listening to music and texting family about our movements as people were excited to see the pic and get the update too.

I had to drink water and have a semi-full bladder for the scan and so I started drinking a bottle of water as we were almost there.. too early and too much! Omg my bladder was sooooo full, I could barely walk without moaning haha.

We arrived and waited a short while, me and Ant distracted ourselves by playing a silly game on his phone cos we (I) couldnt sit still.

We went in and gave a few details of name, DOB etc. Lay on the bed and they put the jelly stuff on my belly.

The first thing the lady said was how full my bladder was and how much did I drink!! Hhaha, tell me about it love..

Anyway, she scanned or whatever you'd word it as.. round my belly and found the little nugget! EEEK. She examined for a second without saying much as I looked at Ant really excitedly and held my hand out to him.

She then said how it was definitely a live pregnancy as the lil bab was wriggling around so much! It was INSANE to see! We were fully expecting a tiny little blob.. it was actually in lil human shape. Little arms and legs.. it was honestly incredible. To see the heartbeat fluttering away as well.. honestly makes me well up. She said the heart rate was around 170 which was really good.



She said that the baby is gonna be a real kicker and it was moving so much! She dated me at 9 weeks and 3 days. My due date is 29th May 2020.

She then checked over my ovaries etc and all fine. I can't put into words how amazing this experience was, to be there with Antony and look at this tiny little baby we are having.

We were all done and I was more than ready to go for a wee!! Haha, we left the scan place and went to the nearest coffee shop so we could look through all the pics they automatically sent to my phone.

Again, this was just awesome, to look at the pics and send them to my family, who were all waiting.. The response was so nice as well, I was just overwhelmed by love this day!

We facetimed Antony's nan to tell her the news and she was really really happy, she's joked in the past not to make her a great nan but since having 2 other little granddaughters, she's loving it. So she was really happy, we love her a lot.

We then headed home to tell Ant's siblings.. We first met Hannah for lunch and handed her a scan picture and she was soooo excited!! She is massively broody at the moment and so was overjoyed by the news of another niece/nephew, so that was really cool.

We then headed home for pressies and and a chill.

Antony got me my favourite perfume, some sweeties and new pjs and a reeeeeally lush dressing gown. Honestly, all these things were bloody perfect. I've hardly taken off the pjs and dressing gown..

We watched a crimey documentary as I got to choose TV cos it was my birthday muhaha! And headed to Ant's brother's house to tell him and his partner the news. They've got a 6 month old baby who is literally the cutest ever.

We showed them the picture and they were happy for us too, we caught up and I played with the baba for a bit. Once we'd got home, we had texts from the both of them to say congrats and if we need anything to ask them, which was really lovely.

So yeah! I can honestly say this was one of the best weekends ever! All just went absolutely perfectly.

Manchester Mandem

So I had my first midwife appointment which was nice to make it feel a little bit more real.. kind of?!

It was a long appointment where she asked me 101 questions about mine and Ant‘s previous and family medical history, she took a urine sampe (which I brought with me in a shot glass as I know I am too pee shy to go in public places! Bane of my life honestly..) and did a blood test, which I thought I'd be nervous for but jheeze, it was easy and even more jheeze, I'm gonna give birth so better get a grip!

All went fine and I also got another appointment booked in for the 12 week scan and the 16 week midwife appointment.

On the Friday of that week, we headed up to Manchester to see my dad and fam with Connor and Emily.

I love seeing my family but god, it's always so long in between visits and then they fly by!

So, again time to tell them the news.. I was so bloody nervous!! Argh, I dont know why I cant control my heart rate and nerves, It’s so weird. Dad caught me and Emily smirking at each other cos she was telling me to hurry up and tell them on Whatsapp. So again, the awkward person I am I just sorta blurted it out when Dad was like tell me why you're smirking at each other!!

The reaction was lovely anywho, dad put his hands to his mouth in surprise and right away stood up to cuddle me, Karen welled up and was another one to be like this better not be a joke!

I then sat in between them and had a little snuggle as we discussed dates and whatnot. It was really nice and makes me so happy when people are so happy for us! I also told my lil sister the next day who was equally as excited!

The rest of the weekend was so much fun, we went to junkyard golf and got awesome c/mocktails at this place, covered in sweeties. Dad won the golf and has been reminding us frequently about it ever since! We went to the pub afterwards and had such a good laugh, playing I have never, which you know, isn't as fun when you're sober cos you dont want to tell people the stuff you've been up to when you're not pissed LOL!

Sunday we just slobbed round dads until we got up to leave and head back home. Another awesome but really quick weekend.

Sunny Spain

The day after the festival I met up with my bestie Lois who had made me this little care package.. I dont know what else to call it but it was absolutely amazing.

Honestly, I dont know how the hell I would have ever survived my life without this girl. She is everything to me and I feel like the world would benefit from having more Lois' in it!
(I'm not crying, you're crying)

The bag had socks, bath salts, face mask, chocolate, sweets, nipple pads (which have already come in handy just to warm my very sensitive and sore nips up!) and all sorts. Out of all the goodies in the bag it was the lil microwaveable teddy that got my crying as it was a mummy sloth and her baby sloth! TOO CUTE.


So after telling my twin bro, I called my other brother Adam in the week to tell him. I felt nervous as I know that he and his fiance have been trying for a long time. So I felt quite bad telling them as I know how much they want it and I want it to happen for them too. But as expected Adam was nothing but congratulatory to me. He was one of the people I was happy with telling and not feeling really awkward once I'd said it... I dont know why! But yeah, it was really nice.

Oh actually, maybe its because he said it first! I’ve just remembered he actually said to me first 'you're pregnant arent you' so i guess it was much easier just to say yes!! Yes I am!

So next up to tell was Ant's mum and her husband Albert. We were going on a week long holiday to Spain with them, so again.. it's really obvious as I wasn’t drinking.

We met them out there as they were staying for a long time and we were one of a few visitors they were having. Man, I was so looking forward to this holiday in the sunshineee!

Telling them was another one where I felt nervous for and then awks.. again I dont know why! But Ant passed them card which said in there ‘Thank you bringing us on holiday from Ant, Lissa and lil nugget :)’ then Ant has written in brackets (a baby!) haha.

I think it was another were they were a bit like.. ohh! Ginette sort of knew we were trying but it did happen very quickly!

Anyways the rest of the holiday was lush, proper relaxed and just what we needed. We did lots of walking, chilling, eating.. Ant did lots of drinking for the both of us.

We had such a laugh, and I got very burnt on the last day.. OBV.

 (the wine was for the gram and not mine!)

Hospitality in the Park

Soo I have to say, not a whole lot happened after finding out we were pregnant! Just general excitement and hoping it might sink in soon??

I went to the doctors who were literally like, was it planned? Yes. Congratulations.. here's a self referral form to get yourself booked in with a midwife.

Oh, actually I say not much happened.. Connor and Emily came to stay that Friday night as we had a festival the next day!! So they arrived late Friday evening, all was well, we got into pjs and got chilling which was lovely. We had some dinner, which was delicious! They'd made vegan cauliflower curry and gave us loads, omg it was lush. (could eat it now!!)

Earlier in the convo Connor mentioned how he'd spoken to mum earlier about the festival and he mentioned how I am really annoying when I drink cos I'm very loud and just very out there (I'm very aware of this, everyone is!!) and mum had "joked" on the phone, oh maybe she won't drink this year.. Emily made a comment laughing saying that she cant imagine me ever walking out of the front door sober on the way to a festival (which usually is very true!).

So anyway, we went into the living room and sat to chill and chat... I knew I had to tell them the news even though it was really early cos we were going to Hospitality the next day and I was obviously going to be sober and this makes it soooo obvious because, honestly there's no other reason as to why I wouldnt drink! So I sat there, really bloody nervous/anxious which I didnt expect.. I thought telling people would be an awesome feeling of YAAAY but honestly, almost everyone I've told I've been sweating and not overly enjoyed the experience!

So I started by saying.. sooo you will be seeing me walk out of the door sober tomorrow.. and they both stared at me like wtf, I said because I'm pregnant!

Honestly, it felt like a good 10 minutes the whole room was silent. I didnt know what to do, no-one was speaking and I was sat there feeling so silly! Eventually I was like.. can someone please say something? And they were sort of like.. are you joking?? Is this serious? LOL

I can understand why they didnt believe me cos they didnt know we were trying and so it was sort of out of the blue.. especially as I'd not really changed my party lifestyle all that recently at all. But once they believed me, they were finally like congratulations! Hugged me and we continued on with the night.

The next day was awesome, I've never done a festival sober and honestly never thought I would! I really really enjoyed it and had such a good laugh, the only annoying thing was needing a wee and being too pee shy to go as the portaloos were gross and i wasnt drunk enough to ignore it!

Connor and Emily started to tell me later on how happy they were for us and what awesome uncle and auntie they were going to be, which was lovely haha.

Ant couldnt hold it in and so told his friend, which escalated to us telling the whole group - I thought they'd cotton on to me being sober but honestly I totally was gonna get away with it!! Everyone was really lovely, especially our close friends Matty and Ade. Love them!

Anyway, I did leave an hour before the end as my legs were totally done and I was tired, but we got home easily in a cab and I munched a curry when we got in and was in bed asleep by 11pm! Result!

I'm baaaaack

So I'm not gonna try and catch up, I'm just gonna start a fresh..

Anyway about a year ago I said to Ant 'soo when we having babies' and he jokingly said 'Tuesday the 3rd' so I looked in my calendar and the next was September.. anyway skip forward to July 19 and I'm bringing it back up again. We spoke about it and he kept to Tuesday 3rd September, BUT obviously I bumped this forward to August and started trying.

We had an awesome summer, in June we went to Nass. And in July to SW4 which was AMAZING and I knew in my head this was possibly gonna be one of my last festies for a looong while, we went to loads of parties and drank loads and yeah, enjoyed the last summer (for me anyway) of drinking.

 

 


SW4 was honestly the best!!!

So anyway, in August I drove myself a little insane, this was the first time ever I was trying to have a baby.. it was all so so exciting but I am also a bit of a craazy person. I was obsessed with googling symptoms, and making sure we had sex all the time at the right time.. I wanted to test EVERY SINGLE DAY. So yeah I was a bit of a stressy person (shock).

But I really surprised myself the following month, I decided, okay I've done the craziness.. lets take it easy now. Which was so much more of a relief! We kept trying on the right days and that sort of thing. Then about 3/4 days before I was due on, I had my bestie Lois over (she comes over every Tues) and so we thought lets test. I had loads of the cheapy ones you get off Amazon anyways.

So I take the test and we carry on chatting - we really arent paying attention at all...

Then few mins later we check it (also Alex, one of Ants besties walks in and we are sooo obviously hiding something, we jump out of our skin and laugh and just look totally guilty. Was so funny! He didn’t respond, probably cos we were being just so ridiculous and weird!) and the test looks pretty negative, but we look reaaaaaaally close and there's the faintest lil line ever. We didnt want to get our hopes up but we'd done these tests last month and seen nothing at all.

I did another 2 tests to see if the little line came up again and it did..again I'm trying real hard not to be crazy here. We get a tiny bit excited but dont want to get too ahead of ourselves...

The next day I did like what felt like 20 other tests,  digital ones that failed.. ones that said 'not pregnant' and reaally faint lines.

I called my mum and said 'so I've done a test' and straight away she was like ARGHHHHHHHH  I KNEW THAT'S WHY YOU WERE CALLING. She really was getting excited, which was awesome cos I was secretly screaming too but just had it in the back of my mind that I still wasn’t 100%.

I'd always planned that when I tell Antony it's gonna be all set up, have a lil camera filming and I hand him this little Harry Potter babygrow cos I know he'd love it.. but honestly, this all went out the window cos I didnt want to wait till we got home and do a big reveal I just wanted to tell him NOW.

So at lunch I set my phone to voice record (didnt want to film and it be really obvious) and I told him I think I might be pregnant.. his reaction was ..a very shocked face and a very scared 'wot' hahaa.. makes me laugh still. He was like 'What do you mean you THINK you might be pregnant' and so I explained the faint lines etc and he was like ‘ohhhh my god I cant eat’. (we'd met up for lunch)

So this was Wednesday and I was due on on Friday, so we waited till Friday to do another test and get our definite positive.. in the meantime Ant kept going 'ohhh sheeettt' every time he thought about it, haha! In a funny way.. he wasn’t freaking out tooooo badly..

Friday morning came, omg I was so excited.. Ant was lay in the bath and I did the test, sat down next to him and explained what we were looking for.. we were so nervous.. then eventually I flipped it over and there was a definite cross, our definite 'you are pregnant!' EEEEK! Antony seemed happy and was like 'yep there it is' bless him, still a bit like 'sheeet' haha. But was grinning and saying ‘we gonna have a baby!’

I sent the pic to my mum and to Lois and mum was like yaay! I knew it! Lois called and cried down the phone with happiness which made me cry and we just screamed and were very much like 'omg.. this is real WTF!'

So this I guess this is the beginning... and I am SO excited.