Fireworks weekend

Sooo after the crazy birthday weekend, we had a couple plans during the week..

Me and Ant went to see my older brother in her new(ish) gaff that we'd not been to see yet. It was a lovely little area, shame its still about an hour away from us. House was awesome size, with loads of potential. I say it like that cos they're in the middle of renovating etc so you can see it's gonna be awesome.

We had a proper nice chilled out evening to be honest, it was really easy to just chat and relax. We ordered pizza which was great cos I am hungry ALL THE TIME at the moment so I really stuffed my face.   

The next evening we went to Nandos with Ant's family which was good fun, I felt a bit rough to be honest and completely knackered but we had a really good time catching up and Ant's lil niece was being passed around the table so it was cute.

Then.. Friday! We didnt have many plans really, just to chill out (my favourite thing to do). Matty popped over as he had bought us these SUPER cute gifts already. Love them! Cant wait to put our lil baby in them. Ant and his friend's are definitely going to turn out baby into a little geek... 

Saturday was another day with not many plans to be honest.. I dropped Antony off at his friends house early so he could watch England lose at the Rugby.

I then went off food shopping to buy loads of fruit and veg as I really need to start eating more healthily as all I ant it carbs and sugar and all the bad(good) food.

I came home, made a smoothie, chilled out and waited for the call to pick Ant up. This came, along with a request to take his mate home as well.. which was fine. So I did that and then we went to Sainsburys as Ant needed more beer for Sat.

Ant is definitely drinking for 2 these days!

Anyways... so we're driving home and I offer Ant some of my babybel.. he pretends to throw it out of the car window and I say to him 'oh noo if you'd have done that I'd have be well upset'.

So what does he do?? He gives me a tiny bit back and then chucks it out of the window! I didn't speak to him the whole rest of the way home.. he did try and say 'I'm sorry babe, I didnt mean to offend, was just a joke!'

I got home and went straight upstairs and sobbed my heart out!! Properly crying, haha... honestly how ridiculous! Ant was so sweet, took me and cuddled me and told me to let all my cries out, even though they were ridiculous.

I started a thread on mumsnet about it and it's got loads of hilarious replies! https://www.mumsnet.com/Talk/pregnancy/3733416-most-ridiculous-thing-you-ve-cried-over-whilst-pregnant

Anyway, I recovered and met Lois for a coffee and we had a lovely little catch up before meeting our other bestie Sarah to go to see the fireworks. 

We had such a laugh and the fireworks were bloody awesome! I watched them on the rides like a proud mother..

We then went and munched a maccies, sat in the car getting fat and headed home!

I waited up for Matty as he was coming round to see Ant and Alex.. but he'd been on a date so I wanted to hear all about it. 

He had an awesome time and you could clearly see he was buzzing which makes me sooooooo happy! 

Sunday I woke up and got cracking with more healthy cooking and smoothie making. 

I've spent most of the day writing all these blogs posts, trying to catch up whilst Ant puts my new exercise bike together as I'd broken mine recenty.  

Right I'm up to date! WOO!

Birthday weekend! (Long post alert!)

So this weekend, I've been looking forward to sooo much! We had so many awesome plans..

Lets start with Friday of course..

Our best friend Matty came round for the evening, we had tuna pasta bake and caught up on life! Matty has had a bit of a hard time lately but I feel like is coming out the other side now.. I wont go into details as this is not for me to discuss on my blog. Me and Ant love this man with our whole hearts and would do anything to make sure he is happy!

So he came over, we ate and chatted which was lovely and we carved pumkins! This was actually a lot of fun, people had said at work that it's tedious and I wouldnt enjoy it much.

But it was hilarious! To Ant nearly cutting his fingers off to me knocking the tooth out of my pumpkin.

We added the pics of Ant's and Matty's to my instagram for a vote and Matty's won! Mine was awful and didn't deserve an insta post.


 

On the Saturday Ant was taking me out to London for a surprise to celebrate my birthday.. we got up, he made us breakfast and we headed out.

Travel was easy peasy and we both listened to Pro Green on the tube.

When we arrived, I still had no clue where we were going but the weather was dry and we were happy as larry! We passed a theatre and I jokingly asked if we were going in.. didnt think much of it till we reached the next theatre down the road which was showing the Book of Mormon which I've always wanted to see.

A few years ago, Ant said we could go and then his group of mates organised all the lads going so he went to see it without me! So years later and he's making up for it.

I was so excited! We had some time and I was starving, Ant said we could go anywhere I liked.. including the amazing Hard Rock Cafe which me and my family love..

But I chose Pizza Hut! (sorry mum... I'm a simple chav muahaa) so we ate our body weight in pizza and went for a beer/coke before the show.

The show was absolutely hilarious!! I can't recommend it enough, I was belly laughing. I have to say, it's not for those who get offended easily.. it's made by the guys who created South Park, so you know their jokes are savage, it was so so good. I want to see it again already!


We went for another beer/coke and headed home, usually we'd go partying, this is the first Birthday since teens I've been so sensible!

But it was a frigging awesome day and I went to sleep a very happy bunny.

Sunday, I literally got up and cleaned/tidied the house, did some cooking and slobbed. The perfect Sunday! (yes even with the house work, it makes me happy haha)

So Monday, my birthday! EEEEEEK. Honestly, I kept forgetting it was my birthday cos I was soo so excited for our first (early scan!)

I woke up about 4am so excited and so ready for the day! Haha, I eventually got out of bed about 6am and got myself in the bath and ready. Woke Antman up at 8am and we had some brekkie and got ready. Ant came upstairs with cupcake (We always waste a big bday cake) and a candle in it singing to me. God I love him!

We head off to Wimbledon, listening to music and texting family about our movements as people were excited to see the pic and get the update too.

I had to drink water and have a semi-full bladder for the scan and so I started drinking a bottle of water as we were almost there.. too early and too much! Omg my bladder was sooooo full, I could barely walk without moaning haha.

We arrived and waited a short while, me and Ant distracted ourselves by playing a silly game on his phone cos we (I) couldnt sit still.

We went in and gave a few details of name, DOB etc. Lay on the bed and they put the jelly stuff on my belly.

The first thing the lady said was how full my bladder was and how much did I drink!! Hhaha, tell me about it love..

Anyway, she scanned or whatever you'd word it as.. round my belly and found the little nugget! EEEK. She examined for a second without saying much as I looked at Ant really excitedly and held my hand out to him.

She then said how it was definitely a live pregnancy as the lil bab was wriggling around so much! It was INSANE to see! We were fully expecting a tiny little blob.. it was actually in lil human shape. Little arms and legs.. it was honestly incredible. To see the heartbeat fluttering away as well.. honestly makes me well up. She said the heart rate was around 170 which was really good.



She said that the baby is gonna be a real kicker and it was moving so much! She dated me at 9 weeks and 3 days. My due date is 29th May 2020.

She then checked over my ovaries etc and all fine. I can't put into words how amazing this experience was, to be there with Antony and look at this tiny little baby we are having.

We were all done and I was more than ready to go for a wee!! Haha, we left the scan place and went to the nearest coffee shop so we could look through all the pics they automatically sent to my phone.

Again, this was just awesome, to look at the pics and send them to my family, who were all waiting.. The response was so nice as well, I was just overwhelmed by love this day!

We facetimed Antony's nan to tell her the news and she was really really happy, she's joked in the past not to make her a great nan but since having 2 other little granddaughters, she's loving it. So she was really happy, we love her a lot.

We then headed home to tell Ant's siblings.. We first met Hannah for lunch and handed her a scan picture and she was soooo excited!! She is massively broody at the moment and so was overjoyed by the news of another niece/nephew, so that was really cool.

We then headed home for pressies and and a chill.

Antony got me my favourite perfume, some sweeties and new pjs and a reeeeeally lush dressing gown. Honestly, all these things were bloody perfect. I've hardly taken off the pjs and dressing gown..

We watched a crimey documentary as I got to choose TV cos it was my birthday muhaha! And headed to Ant's brother's house to tell him and his partner the news. They've got a 6 month old baby who is literally the cutest ever.

We showed them the picture and they were happy for us too, we caught up and I played with the baba for a bit. Once we'd got home, we had texts from the both of them to say congrats and if we need anything to ask them, which was really lovely.

So yeah! I can honestly say this was one of the best weekends ever! All just went absolutely perfectly.

Manchester Mandem

So I had my first midwife appointment which was nice to make it feel a little bit more real.. kind of?!

It was a long appointment where she asked me 101 questions about mine and Ant‘s previous and family medical history, she took a urine sampe (which I brought with me in a shot glass as I know I am too pee shy to go in public places! Bane of my life honestly..) and did a blood test, which I thought I'd be nervous for but jheeze, it was easy and even more jheeze, I'm gonna give birth so better get a grip!

All went fine and I also got another appointment booked in for the 12 week scan and the 16 week midwife appointment.

On the Friday of that week, we headed up to Manchester to see my dad and fam with Connor and Emily.

I love seeing my family but god, it's always so long in between visits and then they fly by!

So, again time to tell them the news.. I was so bloody nervous!! Argh, I dont know why I cant control my heart rate and nerves, It’s so weird. Dad caught me and Emily smirking at each other cos she was telling me to hurry up and tell them on Whatsapp. So again, the awkward person I am I just sorta blurted it out when Dad was like tell me why you're smirking at each other!!

The reaction was lovely anywho, dad put his hands to his mouth in surprise and right away stood up to cuddle me, Karen welled up and was another one to be like this better not be a joke!

I then sat in between them and had a little snuggle as we discussed dates and whatnot. It was really nice and makes me so happy when people are so happy for us! I also told my lil sister the next day who was equally as excited!

The rest of the weekend was so much fun, we went to junkyard golf and got awesome c/mocktails at this place, covered in sweeties. Dad won the golf and has been reminding us frequently about it ever since! We went to the pub afterwards and had such a good laugh, playing I have never, which you know, isn't as fun when you're sober cos you dont want to tell people the stuff you've been up to when you're not pissed LOL!

Sunday we just slobbed round dads until we got up to leave and head back home. Another awesome but really quick weekend.

Sunny Spain

The day after the festival I met up with my bestie Lois who had made me this little care package.. I dont know what else to call it but it was absolutely amazing.

Honestly, I dont know how the hell I would have ever survived my life without this girl. She is everything to me and I feel like the world would benefit from having more Lois' in it!
(I'm not crying, you're crying)

The bag had socks, bath salts, face mask, chocolate, sweets, nipple pads (which have already come in handy just to warm my very sensitive and sore nips up!) and all sorts. Out of all the goodies in the bag it was the lil microwaveable teddy that got my crying as it was a mummy sloth and her baby sloth! TOO CUTE.


So after telling my twin bro, I called my other brother Adam in the week to tell him. I felt nervous as I know that he and his fiance have been trying for a long time. So I felt quite bad telling them as I know how much they want it and I want it to happen for them too. But as expected Adam was nothing but congratulatory to me. He was one of the people I was happy with telling and not feeling really awkward once I'd said it... I dont know why! But yeah, it was really nice.

Oh actually, maybe its because he said it first! I’ve just remembered he actually said to me first 'you're pregnant arent you' so i guess it was much easier just to say yes!! Yes I am!

So next up to tell was Ant's mum and her husband Albert. We were going on a week long holiday to Spain with them, so again.. it's really obvious as I wasn’t drinking.

We met them out there as they were staying for a long time and we were one of a few visitors they were having. Man, I was so looking forward to this holiday in the sunshineee!

Telling them was another one where I felt nervous for and then awks.. again I dont know why! But Ant passed them card which said in there ‘Thank you bringing us on holiday from Ant, Lissa and lil nugget :)’ then Ant has written in brackets (a baby!) haha.

I think it was another were they were a bit like.. ohh! Ginette sort of knew we were trying but it did happen very quickly!

Anyways the rest of the holiday was lush, proper relaxed and just what we needed. We did lots of walking, chilling, eating.. Ant did lots of drinking for the both of us.

We had such a laugh, and I got very burnt on the last day.. OBV.

 (the wine was for the gram and not mine!)

Hospitality in the Park

Soo I have to say, not a whole lot happened after finding out we were pregnant! Just general excitement and hoping it might sink in soon??

I went to the doctors who were literally like, was it planned? Yes. Congratulations.. here's a self referral form to get yourself booked in with a midwife.

Oh, actually I say not much happened.. Connor and Emily came to stay that Friday night as we had a festival the next day!! So they arrived late Friday evening, all was well, we got into pjs and got chilling which was lovely. We had some dinner, which was delicious! They'd made vegan cauliflower curry and gave us loads, omg it was lush. (could eat it now!!)

Earlier in the convo Connor mentioned how he'd spoken to mum earlier about the festival and he mentioned how I am really annoying when I drink cos I'm very loud and just very out there (I'm very aware of this, everyone is!!) and mum had "joked" on the phone, oh maybe she won't drink this year.. Emily made a comment laughing saying that she cant imagine me ever walking out of the front door sober on the way to a festival (which usually is very true!).

So anyway, we went into the living room and sat to chill and chat... I knew I had to tell them the news even though it was really early cos we were going to Hospitality the next day and I was obviously going to be sober and this makes it soooo obvious because, honestly there's no other reason as to why I wouldnt drink! So I sat there, really bloody nervous/anxious which I didnt expect.. I thought telling people would be an awesome feeling of YAAAY but honestly, almost everyone I've told I've been sweating and not overly enjoyed the experience!

So I started by saying.. sooo you will be seeing me walk out of the door sober tomorrow.. and they both stared at me like wtf, I said because I'm pregnant!

Honestly, it felt like a good 10 minutes the whole room was silent. I didnt know what to do, no-one was speaking and I was sat there feeling so silly! Eventually I was like.. can someone please say something? And they were sort of like.. are you joking?? Is this serious? LOL

I can understand why they didnt believe me cos they didnt know we were trying and so it was sort of out of the blue.. especially as I'd not really changed my party lifestyle all that recently at all. But once they believed me, they were finally like congratulations! Hugged me and we continued on with the night.

The next day was awesome, I've never done a festival sober and honestly never thought I would! I really really enjoyed it and had such a good laugh, the only annoying thing was needing a wee and being too pee shy to go as the portaloos were gross and i wasnt drunk enough to ignore it!

Connor and Emily started to tell me later on how happy they were for us and what awesome uncle and auntie they were going to be, which was lovely haha.

Ant couldnt hold it in and so told his friend, which escalated to us telling the whole group - I thought they'd cotton on to me being sober but honestly I totally was gonna get away with it!! Everyone was really lovely, especially our close friends Matty and Ade. Love them!

Anyway, I did leave an hour before the end as my legs were totally done and I was tired, but we got home easily in a cab and I munched a curry when we got in and was in bed asleep by 11pm! Result!

I'm baaaaack

So I'm not gonna try and catch up, I'm just gonna start a fresh..

Anyway about a year ago I said to Ant 'soo when we having babies' and he jokingly said 'Tuesday the 3rd' so I looked in my calendar and the next was September.. anyway skip forward to July 19 and I'm bringing it back up again. We spoke about it and he kept to Tuesday 3rd September, BUT obviously I bumped this forward to August and started trying.

We had an awesome summer, in June we went to Nass. And in July to SW4 which was AMAZING and I knew in my head this was possibly gonna be one of my last festies for a looong while, we went to loads of parties and drank loads and yeah, enjoyed the last summer (for me anyway) of drinking.

 

 


SW4 was honestly the best!!!

So anyway, in August I drove myself a little insane, this was the first time ever I was trying to have a baby.. it was all so so exciting but I am also a bit of a craazy person. I was obsessed with googling symptoms, and making sure we had sex all the time at the right time.. I wanted to test EVERY SINGLE DAY. So yeah I was a bit of a stressy person (shock).

But I really surprised myself the following month, I decided, okay I've done the craziness.. lets take it easy now. Which was so much more of a relief! We kept trying on the right days and that sort of thing. Then about 3/4 days before I was due on, I had my bestie Lois over (she comes over every Tues) and so we thought lets test. I had loads of the cheapy ones you get off Amazon anyways.

So I take the test and we carry on chatting - we really arent paying attention at all...

Then few mins later we check it (also Alex, one of Ants besties walks in and we are sooo obviously hiding something, we jump out of our skin and laugh and just look totally guilty. Was so funny! He didn’t respond, probably cos we were being just so ridiculous and weird!) and the test looks pretty negative, but we look reaaaaaaally close and there's the faintest lil line ever. We didnt want to get our hopes up but we'd done these tests last month and seen nothing at all.

I did another 2 tests to see if the little line came up again and it did..again I'm trying real hard not to be crazy here. We get a tiny bit excited but dont want to get too ahead of ourselves...

The next day I did like what felt like 20 other tests,  digital ones that failed.. ones that said 'not pregnant' and reaally faint lines.

I called my mum and said 'so I've done a test' and straight away she was like ARGHHHHHHHH  I KNEW THAT'S WHY YOU WERE CALLING. She really was getting excited, which was awesome cos I was secretly screaming too but just had it in the back of my mind that I still wasn’t 100%.

I'd always planned that when I tell Antony it's gonna be all set up, have a lil camera filming and I hand him this little Harry Potter babygrow cos I know he'd love it.. but honestly, this all went out the window cos I didnt want to wait till we got home and do a big reveal I just wanted to tell him NOW.

So at lunch I set my phone to voice record (didnt want to film and it be really obvious) and I told him I think I might be pregnant.. his reaction was ..a very shocked face and a very scared 'wot' hahaa.. makes me laugh still. He was like 'What do you mean you THINK you might be pregnant' and so I explained the faint lines etc and he was like ‘ohhhh my god I cant eat’. (we'd met up for lunch)

So this was Wednesday and I was due on on Friday, so we waited till Friday to do another test and get our definite positive.. in the meantime Ant kept going 'ohhh sheeettt' every time he thought about it, haha! In a funny way.. he wasn’t freaking out tooooo badly..

Friday morning came, omg I was so excited.. Ant was lay in the bath and I did the test, sat down next to him and explained what we were looking for.. we were so nervous.. then eventually I flipped it over and there was a definite cross, our definite 'you are pregnant!' EEEEK! Antony seemed happy and was like 'yep there it is' bless him, still a bit like 'sheeet' haha. But was grinning and saying ‘we gonna have a baby!’

I sent the pic to my mum and to Lois and mum was like yaay! I knew it! Lois called and cried down the phone with happiness which made me cry and we just screamed and were very much like 'omg.. this is real WTF!'

So this I guess this is the beginning... and I am SO excited.