Before I've even started writing this post I already know it's gonna be.. less positive that usual. So apologies for that!
Last night Antony picked up a table and chair set for the garden, which we were really excited about as it's sunny and have family coming this weekend.
So when we got home I started to do the house cleaning and sorting all bedding etc out.. fun stuff, I know. And Antony started to set up the table and chairs. Anyway, fast forward about 2/3 hours and I've done the cleaning and Antony is still faffing with the table and chairs. Basically it was faulty and Ant just sweated out in the sun for 3 hours trying to put a faulty table together ARGH.
So not only was that a load of wasted effort.. we still have no outside seating.
To top the night off, when we gave up and decided to chill, the bloody cat wouldn't come in (like to keep them in at night) and we ended up chasing one round the garden whilst our pizza went cold.
So, to this morning.. I woke up and did some exercise in the garden, it was lovely! It was sunny and was nice to watch the kitties play outside. Also this is my 23rd day streak of exercising/closing the rings on my watch! God I can't wait for the 1st May to do absolutely nothing.
It's supposedly going to hit 27 degrees today. So after a shower and waking Ant up, I thought let's find something summery to wear.
Sooo, this is where it all goes wrong and where I'm going to contradict something I said in an earlier post. In my earlier post I said how I don't exercise to change the way I look.. and to be honest, that's still true-ish.
But, I got so upset this morning putting a skirt on and wondering why why why, when I exercise almost everyday am I still looking in the mirror at myself in a skirt and crying! It's ridiculous.
I just hate my legs/knees so much and it upsets me. I should feel confident about my body and sometimes, like today, I just don't.
Anyway, I decided to keep the skirt on because a) it's gonna be bloody hot and b) because I CAN wear a skirt and not worry about my stupid god damn chubby pasty legs!! ARGH AGAIN.
Okay, I think I got it out of my system. I want to be positive and happy today, especially as it's my Friday and the sun is shining and everything. is. good.
I am so looking forward to 12, I'm going to meet Antony and we're going to eat a baguette by the river, in the sun.
Antony is so good, last night he kept his cool and stayed happy (I probably would have smashed up the table!) and this morning trying to cheer me up. What a gem.
Right, I'm off. Hoping the next post will be super happy and not like this one!
