Tuesday bluesday

Tuesday means back to work! Booo

I felt quite down in the morning as me and Ant had had such a nice time together and it always sucks when you have to go back to reality! 

But work was fine and as I mention a lot, the sunshine really helps.

I can't say I did much on this day to be honest. I went to my friend's house to sort his cats and his house out a bit as he's back Wednesday, so I swept and tidied and just made sure it was all okay. 

I haven't had much hassle feeding them but it will be nice to not have to! They're sweet though, even if one did run out the door!!

Anyway, work was fine, normal.. 

I left work at 5 and went to a market research about cheese! It's such easy money, I spent 2 hours talking about something I love, got to try new cheeses and then got £75! Beautiful. 

I headed home, made mine and Ants lunches for the next day, had my dinner, showered and went to bed. How bloody exciting! 

Wednesday was again, another normal work day. It was a a bit shit if I'm honest! I like my job but one thing I don't like is the phones.. I am responsible for taking the calls in the office and it just fills me with anxiety to be honest. Knowing everyone is listening.. not knowing who it's going be or if I'm going to be able to deal with their query.. I'm just rubbish at it and have very little confidence when it comes to this. 

So anyway,  the phone rang loads in a a short amount of time, which I hate! And I got all flustered, one of the calls I didn't take the name and the other I assumed it was a certain company and it wasn't (they sounded very similar) and yeah it all went very wrong. 

My director told me off a bit and I just felt like such a twat. My manager told me not to take it to heart but it wasn't him saying something it was ME being rubbish and messing it up. 

It annoys me so much that I'm so useless at it. I want to get better but for some reason as soon as the stupid phone rings I just lose all logic! Grrr. It's something that really gets to me. 

So yeah, I was in a bit of a crappy mood after this. 

But I went to the gym and it definitely made me feel better.  I went off home and me and Ant got showered and made steak for dinner. Beautiful.

Ant's so good, always making me feel better and lifting me up. What would I do without him! 

This post wasn't a great one but such is life ey

Sunny Monday

Ahh Monday off!

So I woke up feeling good about the fact that the sun was shining and me and Ant had the day off together whilst everyone else was at work muaha!

I up got up, walked to the gym and did another weights class.

I then called Antony on my walk home and we discussed our day plans.. he was getting up and getting a bath. He was rushing as he really wanted to get out in the sunshine asap.

I got to my friend's house to feed his cats and make sure the house was looking nice and they were coming home in a couple days.

He has a hot tub and I needed to add a tablet to it to make sure it was clean for his return, this was fine.. until I realised I couldn't put the lid back on the hot tub by myself!

I had a proper little stress because I just wanted to go and enjoy my day off! So I stropped home, annoyed I couldn't do it by myself, even though it was really light! It was the size, if I pushed one side up the other would then fall off.. grr..

I popped to a shop and bought stuff for breakfast, got home and had a quick shower.

Me and Ant went back and sorted the hot tub as I kept worrying about it.. as per. Such a worrier!

We got home, had a ham and spring onion omelette and rushed out. We popped into Waitrose and got some picnic supplies.

We then headed to Virgina Water. After Ant took the wrong turn 2 or 3 times (even though it's right by our house and we've been there many times!) we finally parked up and walked through.

We walked around for a little while feeling happy and relaxed.

We sat down on a blanket by the water and fed the duckies. We had our lunch and chilled out for a bit, it was so nice!

Apart from the bugs and insects I kept finding on the blanket or me!! I hate them so so much.

Ant absolutely loves to wind me up so found it hilarious every time I got up screaming like a little girl. We always end up having a little jokey argument and play fighting, does make me laugh loads.

After laying around being lazy and taking selfies, we decided to go for a walk.





We ended up walking around the whole of Virgina Water.. it was probably around 2 hours walk which was really nice. We chatted about loads, mainly about future plans and how much we enjoyed Arcadia/Fabric but also wanted to have a healthy life too!

So we're planning to start housey stuff and Ant's coming back to the gym. Adult life..

So after our long walk, we were feeling tired. We'd had such a nice day in the sunshine together, but it was around 5pm now and so we headed home for some chill time before work tomorrow.

I made us a bacon, sweet potato and squash stew and it was really yummy! To be fair, I say I made it, Ant helped a lot! Sometimes I don't give him enough credit! Sorry Ant.. not that you'll ever read this.

So, we had dinner, had a slob and a cuddle on the sofa before going to bed.

Work tomorrow, booo!

Slobbing Sat and Sun

Me and Ant were sleeping when Hannah rushes in, still pissed shouting 'guys, guys, it's half 11. Shit boys, I was supposed to be at work at 9'

Bit fat oops.

I was so tired, I just couldn't even move or speak yet. 5am- 11:30am is not enough sleep for me.

But she was still drunk and hyper so started blowing raspberries on my foot and dragging me out of bed. Little shit!

I eventually got up as I needed to feed my friend's cats. Antony drove us there and I was so grateful for it as I was definitely not functioning properly yet.

I was so happy to come home and into the duvet on the sofa! I was in a major need of a slob sesh.

And that's exactly what I had! I honestly didn't get up for the entire day other than for a wee and even that I waited until the last second.

We ordered pizza and watched some weird space film, First Dates, The Revenant, Blue Planet, Black Mirror.. all sorts! With naps during them all of course.

What a lovely day.

I then took myself off to bed around 11, I needed to get a proper sleep and wake up tomorrow feeling human please!

Sunday I woke up feeling loads better and then I wanted to sort my life out! I was determined to feel normal again.

I went downstairs and started clearing up. So many beer and wine bottles and just mess and I hate mess!!

So anyway I sorted that all out and then me and Lois went to Sainsburys. Lois is an absolute babe for going with me, I still felt a bit empty headed and need her support even if it was just for a Sainsburys shop!

£65 later and I was home with a kitchen full of healthy food to try and make myself feel better about my life!

Ginette and Albert (Ant's mum and her husband) came round as they are helping us to sort a plan out for the mancave as we really want to get started on our house now.

We made a cuppa and started to talk about what we wanted to do. We decided that we needed to do the garden first as then we could use the back garage access for things we wanted to bring in, like new decking for example. We are planning to brick up the garage door so obviously no access.

We're then going to sort the roof out on the mancave, insulate, add a wall.. all things I half listened to because I just want it magically done!

I'm joking, I want to help. I just want it to be easy and I know it won't be!

So next weekend we are actually going to do some gardening. I've not really any real gardening before, so this is going to bed fun!

It's also meant to be 20 something degrees so I may just end up sunbathing.

Okay okay, I won't I will do stuff.. I am quite looking forward to it actually. I want a healthy, active and productive weekend after the couple we've had.

Anyway, so I then went off to a gym class. I must say it was hard! I'd had a week off and lots of drinking.. so it was tough.

But it felt really good afterwards. I then walked home in the sunshine.

When I got home me and Antony swept, mopped and cleaned the house. Antony actually helped me! But only because his friend was coming round in about an hour and I said I wanted to get the downstairs done before hand.

Seriously though, he was so helpful and I am very grateful! It felt so good to have been shopping, gym and now have a clean house!

I then had a nice relaxing bath, went to feed my friend's cats, got some petrol and then home to chill out.

See how much I am sorting my life out here.. proud!

Me and Ant have Monday off as well so properly nice to chill and know we don't have work the next day!

Fabric Friday

Ahhh, so I really am going to have to play catch up here! It's now Tuesday night and I've not posted since Thursday. I know when I'm looking back on this in years to come I'm gonna wonder where I went! (which is what happened to you mum!). So I'm gonna just fill in the days.. or any interesting bits anyway.

On Friday, me and Ant woke up and thought.. oh god Fabric tonight! Usually we'd be so excited! But I think with having just gone to Arcadia, we just weren't as up for it. And living in our own little home, we often just like take away and chills on the sofa with a casual drink on a Friday.. god we are getting old!

Anyway, we knew we'd enjoy it later.

Work was work... I remember actually trying to write a post on Friday and being like I've nothing to say!

Anyway.. I finished at 5 and headed to my friend's to feed his cats. In my head I was just thinking I'll pop in really quick cos I was just desperate to get home. I just wanted a glass of wine.. and a cigarette (SHAME ON ME I KNOW)

I got to my friend's and his cat ran out the front door.. he usually comes straight back in but this time (the time I wanted to rush!) he wouldn't come in for ages.

Every time I tried to get him in with treats or calling his name, he hissed at me and hit me with his stupid cat paw!

I was getting so frustrated, one second thinking right fuck him, don't care, whatever... then thinking goddddd, I can't leave him. My friend said not to let him out of the front because of the road.. so I needed to get him back in!

Whilst in the kitchen effing and blinding over this stupid cat, he just swans in looking at me.. you..little..

Anyway, so I finally get to go home!!

I was so tired and frustrated at this point I just wanted wine! And of course, I had lots of it. I felt like I needed to drink lots to get in the mood for tonight.

But I drank too quickly and wanted to leave the house at like 8 and that was way way too early for Fabric.

Anyway, Hannah came round to get ready and pre drink we me and Antony.

We finally left with some drunken singing in the taxi from me and Hannah.. and eventually got in the queue for Fabric, yay! Oh actually, I ended up making us get out of the taxi early as I needed a wee. As always.

Hannah somehow scraped her leg and was now using my cardi to wipe it up, lovely! Not that I actually cared at all at the time.. or now!

We got in, got some drinks and got our rave on. The music was SO GOOD. I bloody love drum and bass. We saw our friend's Ade and Rach there and had a boogie together. It's annoying because this is a long post and not much details about Fabric but I can't say I remember a huge amount from actually being in there! Just that it was a good time.

It was awesome awesome awesomeeeeeeee. We did leave around 2:45 or something because we always said we were leaving early as Hannah had work the next day, but to be completely honest we left because we were messy. Oops!

Ant called Hannah to see where she was as we were leaving and turns out she was already in a cab! So I had to repeat my post code to her about 20 times before just asking her to put on the cab driver. God knows where she was going before hand. She was with some boy she and Ant used to know.

Anyway, we got back eventually.

Me, Ant, Hannah the guy they both knew, Alex sat and chatting and drank more wine for a couple more hours.

It was fun! Alex told us about when he was stabbed 6 times a few years ago which was.. interesting! I just couldn't believe it.

 Again can't remember much more about what we talked about, but again it was a good time!

Off to bed we went at 5am.

Thursday thrills

So today, I woke up to Antony waking me up very gently.. I was so surprised he was waking me up! This means I actually slept past 8am.

I went to bed really early as well.. I think I went to bed around half 9 and woke up at 820. I feel I may have finally caught up from the weekend now. Just in time for Fabric on Friday!

So I got up and ready and headed to my friend's house then to work.. same old really.

I met up with Ant for lunch and we discussed our evening plans. Ginette has asked if we can go to a flat she rents out and clean it a bit as the new tenants are arriving tomorrow and apparently there's mould or something like that.. so that's my plan tonight!

Very exciting stuff. Then to my friends, then home to eat and chill. 

I have eaten really badly and not exercised since Saturday and so feeling like a fat lazy flump. I've decided to get it out of my system and then re-start on Sunday/Monday. Really get back into it! It's summer soon.. I can't put weight on now.

So I wrote out this plan - the Tuesday slimming world recipe is bacon, sweet potato and squash stew. Lois is doing slimming world and so thought I’d make us something this time. Sorry for the swear word mum but it’s now a running joke that on Friday we have fuck knows!

 I always needs a plan to get me back into action and I think that one will do! Wheatley has also joined the gym now and wants to start coming so I'm gonna start doing evenings with her too. 

Friday tomorrow and I'm ready for the weekend.. tomorrow night we're going to Fabric nightclub in Laaandan and Wheatley is gonna drive which is beaut! Also said she's gonna leave about 3 which is also a beaut as I was dreading the 6am finish (I’m getting old, I used to be gutted when it finished at 6!!) and then Saturday being completely written off. Even though it probably will be anway.. 

Sunday I want to gym and cook and get my life together and then Monday me and Ant have taken off to chill together! (we didnt think we'd be recovered from Friday cos we're old now but I reckon we'll be fine!)

And that’s my life basically. I’m now sat chilling on the sofa after loads of food and feeling bad that I shouted at Ant for showing me his bogey... 

But seriously why!?

Catch up/ramble

Ah, so after not being able to get to sleep for ages cos I just felt sick after Arcadia, Antony then came up and started snoring so I got into the spare (ish) bed with Hannah next door and slept so much better. I woke up about 7, typically! Fed my kitties, saw Matty asleep on the sofa and then thought right, I need more sleep! 

About and hour and half later, I woke up and said hello to the other dying people in my house. It wasn't pretty.

I had to go feed my friend's cats (yes I definitely neglected them Sunday night, I feel awful! Completely forgot) so Hannah gave me a lift there and we went to Burger King on the way back.

We munched and slobbed for a bit. Matty went home to his bed, I really don't blame him.

I started to feel okay so thought I'd be productive instead of just sitting on the sofa watching something I really wasn't in to. Hannah put something she's currently watching on, think I've seen some of it too. She just likes looking at the long haired men on there ha.

So I stripped the beds, tidied up, sorted the cats out, swept the floor, and yeah basically cleaned and tidied around Hannah and Ant.

Then I had a really long bath and washed away all the sweat and glitter and probably sick off me!

I am definitely getting old because the fact I put on 3 lots of washing AND them all be dry by the end of the day, made me really happy..

I then sunbathed and chilled in the garden until it was time to go and feed my friend's cats again. Me and Ant headed out and Hannah headed home.

We went to the Chinese and the chippy after feeding the cats and then happily munched and slobbed out until it was time for bed. The 3 day weekend was over and we were not happy about it! It was also baking hot, so sleep was going to be uncomfortable. Or was it! Because we had fresh bedding and were both exhausted from the heavy weekend.

Waking up this morning was difficult! Just the thought of normal work life.. I like my job but you know.. it's not Arcadia!

Poor Ant was very sleep and sulky but we persuaded each other to be positive and get on with it.

BUT life hates us and we both ended up stuck in loads and loads of traffic. It was about 20 degrees and so it was not fun! We were on the phone to each other just moaning about it.

I then reversed into a walking man! I went too far forward onto the roundabout before I realised i'd be blocking it and and then looked in the mirror, saw the car behind was far back and so started to reverse. I didn't realised a man was walking behind me! I don't know if the thump was me hitting him or his hand hitting the car like STOP.

I apologised loads and asked if he was okay and he looked annoyed at first - obviously! But I think he saw how sorry and shocked I was and just sort of gave me thumbs up like it's fine, it's fine.

But it wasn't and I burst into tears and couldn't control my stupid sobs. I pulled over and ended up walking to work cos I couldn't hack the heat, traffic and my stupid emotional-ness. Ant ended up pulling over as well and walking with me as the traffic was so bad!

We finally made it to work and we decided to get a coffee and re-start the day. We can do it! 

Then after work Ant had Matty over and I had Lois over, we ate lots of yummy food and slobbed. Perfect.

It's now Wednesday evening and I'm trying my hardest to catch up here so I don't get behind! I keep just having super long blog posts instead - sorry!

But today has been a normal work day.. been quiet and I met Ant for lunch where I had lil moan about how I can be really stupid at work sometimes and then I realise and worry people around me are like.. why she so dim?!

But I'm over it because I cheered myself up by going to TK Maxx and buying a new handbag. Ant also always cheers me up as he's so sweet, even if I do shout at him when he laughs at me. I also ate pizza and now telling Antony that we are going to be fat and get take away tonight because I've lost my motivation to eat well/exercise.. I do this a lot. It will come back soon, hopefully!  

Arcadia!!!!

Where do I start!

It's been a mad couple of days..

Saturday was a loooovely day, me and Antony took out some blankets and chilled in our garden. It was so beautiful to lie there and just think ahh, relaxing in our own lil garden together. 

Until he started to wind me up by pushing me out of his shade and putting his cold cold coke can on me! He just loves to annoy me, honestly! But no, it was really nice. 

I then got ready and he dropped me off and the pub with my 2 besties Hannah and Abby - the pokemon professionals and squirrel friends.

We sat chatting and having a cider in the pub garden and slowly but surely the other girls joined us. It was good! But I did leave around 11 as I wanted to be on top form the next day.. even though I was quite drunk!

I got home and me and Ant ordered pizza and chilled. 

The next morning, I got up excited!! Went and fed my friend's cats and started to get ready asap. It was ARCADIA DAY!! Literally so excited. 

I started pre drinking vodka at about 9am, still feeling a little hungover but so ready for the day! It was another really sunny day and I love that.

Hannah and Katy came round and started getting ready with vodka and glitter. Matty then came round and we headed to the station to meet Baxter and Fraz.

We all managed to get on the same train and get going.. me and the girls were pre drinking and annoying the guys.. as per usual! The train/tubes were hot and we were all desperate to get there. 

After a looooong and sweaty walk, we finally arrived! The queue in was super quick and we headed straight to the bar! We could see Arcadia and hear the tunes already. Ahh just writing it I can feel the excitement I had on Sunday.

After getting a drink we headed to the tent we could hear drum and bass coming from. It was baaaaaaaanging!! We all did the usual OIIIIIII and started skanking out. I got myself up on a little podium of course! It was awesome but SO hot so we ended up going back and forth in and out of the tent. Cooling down, wanting to rave, cooling down, needed to raaaave. We also had lots of trips to the bar and walked around, it wasn't a huge place so couldn't get too lost. 

Although there were a lot a lot of phone calls/texts of where are you?! WHERE!!? Can you see me waving?!

It was such an incredible day! We had such a laugh and a good ole rave. We used to go every other weekend about 7/8 years ago and now we go every few months! If that! So it was awesome to do it again and with some old friends. 

We headed over to Arcadia as it was about to get darker and have some tunes on (it did have some during the day but not skatty enough for us). 

To be honest, it was amazing but did take aaaaaaaaaages to get the actual tunes on and the drops going... felt like we were constantly waiting for the music to start really.. 

Frazer was making me crease, I was getting so much enjoyment out of him shouting 'This is shit!!! Put some drum and bass on!!! House was yesterday! This is shit!!'

But eventually it did get better and we were having itttttttttttt. I spent a lot of time holding Hannah's hand cos I just had no balance as there was a little ledge and everyone was bigger than me.. and maybe alcohol had a lil part to play.

Antony put me on his shoulders and Bax put Hannah on his and WOW! It was bloody amazing. I miss so much being small! Arcadia is just awesome, they had little spidery things crawling out the side of it, jellyfish things coming out and people dancing around. FIREEEEE coming out. Was. Awesome.

We raved and raved until we could take no more.. and I must say I must be getting old because I did get to the point I was done. It was 15 mins before the event ended and I just wanted to sit down.

Hannah felt the same and it was good to have someone on the same page as me throughout the rave I must say! Hannah is the best person to go raving with cos we always wanna do the same thing. Anyway, we waited around for ages and tried to figure out how to get home for aaaaages. 

Finally £200 later, into an uber.

I felt sooo rough and had to get out of the car to throw up on the way back.. luckily we were stopped and I got out casually and yeah... lots and lots of liquid haha. I hadn't eaten all day.

I got home and straight into bed! What. A. Day!!!!!