My week

I can sum Tuesday up reaaal quick.. wake up, go to work, go to the gym and do a leg set, go back to work, head home, make food, wash, eat, bed..

Honestly nothing new or exciting to report! 

Wednesday was pretty much the same, wake up, go to work, but this time I had a lunch break with Ant. We sat by the river and ate our salads which we hugely enjoyed! I'm not even sure how healthy they are to be honest.. flavoured chicken breast which is literally just a herby mix I coat the chicken in and cook.. then lettuce, sauce (LOTS for me), onion, carrot shavings, little bit of pasta, jalapenos, gherkins, beetroot.. croutons for Ant. And bosh, there's our salad.

It's bloody delicious, hence why I'm questioning whether it's actually healthy! 

The other one we have is lettuce, sauce, lil bit of pasta, onion, boiled egg slices and ham. Bosh again. 

See, that's how unexciting my posts are getting.. I'm sat here fully describing my salads.. oh dear.

So anyway, lunch was beaut. I went to quick gym after work and we headed home to chill, as usual.

Thursday, I woke up.. a little grumpy as my body is just going through some shit and it's getting me down.. I can't seem to sort it out. So I woke up and went to the doctors, who were pretty unhelpful to be honest. They recommended putting me on the pill which I don't trust and have had bad experiences with. 

So anyway, after moaning to my manager she's recommended going to a proper clinic and so I've booked an appointment there. My manager is literally like a bestie/mum to me all at the same time. 

At lunch, I met Ant and we went and got a coffee, both had a wee moan and a chill, it was nice. 

Tonight, I was supposed to go to a class called Ladies that Lift but I just don't have the energy/motivation so I've cancelled and booked for next week. This is something I really want to get involved in! I love weights/lifting and I want to do it more more more.. just not tonight.. I just want to go home and eat/bath/chill to be honest.. 

That's another thing bothering me, I'm either not eating at all unless my stomach growls at me for being hungry.. or eating EVERYTHING and then feeling really bad about it. 

All appetite or no appetite. 

Loads of energy or no energy.

Anyone fancy giving me a happy medium?

Sicky Sun..

Ohhhhhhhh my god.

Sunday was one of the worst hangovers ever! I was honestly just throwing up everything. Even water.

I was feeling so so sorry for myself and wishing it would just stop, damn me and Ant for having fun on Saturday!

So yep.. me and Ant were feeling sorry for ourselves for a lot of Sunday. Which I hate as it was such a nice day and we were even enjoying slobbing this time. We both felt bad.

So I forced myself to eat bread and butter.. which was a real struggle, I won't lie. But it worked! I got up, tidied, cleaned and got my cook on.

All the food I had ordered on Saturday was so I could cook loads of food in bulk so that we have lots in.

I think I made 13 dinners in total or something like that. I made slow beef stew, slimming world bacon, squash and sweet potato stew, spag(less) bol and Hairy Bikers chicken tikka masala. 

They were all yum! Apart from I may have got a little OTT on the tumeric in the curry which I was really annoyed about. I didn't mean too.. it was me tapping the jar and then BAM way too much.

But I was still yummy, to be honest.

I was cooking for hours and it was so so hot.. It was a struggle but I did really enjoy it. I love cooking and listening to/singing along to my music as well. I think I sat down around half 8.. my feet were aching and I smelt quite bloody awful but I'd had a productive and I was proud!

That night I didn't sleep well at all which really sucks when you know it's Monday the next day!

I woke up and just knew it was going to be a struggle! But I got through the day, it was really hard cos I just felt so tired! Traffic was so so so bad as well trying to get home so me and Ant were a bit miffed.

But we had a lush little evening as we sat and chilled early as we had a pre made dinner woo!

Sunny Sat

I was supposed to wake up and go to the gym in the morning but I woke up and just couldn't be bothered!

I kept saying I'd get up and go but I just never did. I actually wore my gym kit all morning and even that didn't work.

We had a Live Lean delivery which is lots of reduced fat meat, I got a discount from the gym so I thought I'd give it a go. Think it ended up being £35 for loads of chicken, steak, burgers, sausages and meatballs.

We then got an Asda order which I spent almost £100 on and when it arrived I realised I didn't get bread, eggs, or milk.. how! How is that even possible.

Anyway, Ant popped to the shop and got those ESSENTIAL bits so we could actually have brekkie. When he got back we made and ate some sausages sandwiches and discussed what we'd do for the day..

We didn't have any plans.. so I went and got a bath and sorted myself out. It was a really nice and sunny day so I wanted to go out and do something!

Ant got ready too and we decided to walk into Egham, which is half an hour away from our house, and go to a pub garden.

We got to the first pub and sat outside with a drink, it was so lovely! But maaaaybe, a little bit too hot. So we headed inside to play a game or 2 of pool.

I was so rubbish! The first game was better but I was still bad.. the second I literally didn't even pot a single ball and Ant potted all of his! It's lucky we weren't at my mums cos they have a rule you have to run around in your underwear if you don't pot any and lose. Not that I would have done that of course!

We decided to head home, and figure out what we were gonna do for the night.

We had a nice chill at home, sat in the garden and had couple more drinks.. and yeah it ended up being a very drinky day/night before we even knew it.

We ended up going to Sunbury and meeting our friends Hannah and Matty and going to the pubs around there. We sat in one pub where we got some drinks and Ant got a burger. Lois' brother was on the table next to us and we kept shouting/chatting to each other. Bants!

We moved onto a different pub and sat in their garden, and had a great night!

Matty came back to ours but I couldn't hack it! I went to bed around 1/2.. how I made it to there from starting drinking at around 12 I do not know!

Friday yay

Time to catch up!

I've not written on here since Thursday and it's now Tuesday..

So let's go back.

Friday, as far as I can remember was a normal working day.. I got up and did a weights exercise in the mancave, which I've not done in ages and it was really good!

I keep staying up later and so not getting up early and exercising which has always been my routine but for some reason recently I just can't wake up. Anyway, Friday I forced myself to and I'm so glad.

It really reminded me that, that's the best way to start the day. Everything just felt so much easier about the rest of the day. But maybe that's because it was Friday as well, so everything's a bit more positive as you're ready for the weekend.

Work was work.. I can't remember too much to be honest or even what me and Ant did at lunch time.

I do remember work being quite a laugh that afternoon, as me and my manager were chatting and laughing about stuff.. one thing being our next team away day being to go and spend time with micropigs! But my director said no.. boo!

I finished work anyway and headed home, I rushed to get ready as I needed to go and pick Lois up and then head to the Slug and Lettuce for a little school reunion. It was just a little meet up with the friendship group I used to hang around with in year 7-11.. not the whole year.

Me and Lois have been friends ever since so we, of course, were going together.

I picked her up and we got ready at mine, poured ourselves a pre drink (prink!) and waited for the cab.

Theeeeen the cab took ages so which was annoying as the girls were arriving and Lois booked the table. Oops.. fashionably late dalllling!

Anyway anyway, we arrived and it was bloody brilliant!

First there were Annie and Sophie, so we got there and did the usual OMG HAvenT SEEN yOU IN aGES!

Then the so what are you doing these days, how are ya! Turns out Annie is 8 weeks preggo, so exiting!! Sophie was saying she's really happy working where she is as well, she's moved around a lot but happy now. Woo! Onto the prosecco..

Then Becky, Emma and Rachel arrived. Now we have the old crew! We all had loads of chats, loads reminiscing and lots and lots of laughs! 


I ended up doing a jokey dance on the sofay bit where we were sat like omg look at my twerk and then pretended I was doing it but not really moving my butt... anyway I turn around and Ant't bloody work mate is there watching, laughing! Cringe!

So we all moved onto the dance floor anyway and the girls started doing the Lissa's mum dance! I had totally forgotten about this and can't even really remember how it all started! But it's basically where you start off dancing really rubbish-ey cos you're not really feeling it... then slowly but surely.. getting into it.. until you dance loads like an idiot! Haha, it's so funny!

We ended up walking to Mcdonalds after (definitely my fault as I hadn't eaten dinner). I ended up putting a sign on my head and running around like an idiot hahaha... why am I like this. I was drunk but I remember it all, it was't me being out of it (even though this blog shows you I do that a lot) but this time I was actually just being stupid. I think I've always been the crazy one of the group.

Lois' boyf picked the two of us up and I got home and ate my Mcdonalds.. well tried to anyway I couldn't finish it. Ant helped of course.

Kettlebell klass

So Wednesday went well!! 

I ate well..ish.. and I went to a body build class after work which was really good! Nicely aching today. 

Me and Ant then headed home to have the stew I'd made the other week and frozen, it was delicious! (Lois if you're reading this, we ate it but I am making it again on Sunday for us to have Tues haha).

And then we had a separate together night! I was about to explain what that meant and then thought.. the clues in the name. Antony played his game and I watched programmes he hates. Last night it was My Big Fat Gypsy Wedding. It was great, I love reality tv shows. Love Island is starting soon and I'm so excited. Antony is not. 

So that was our evening. 

Thursday was samey. We both went off to work, I did a kettlebell circuit class at lunch which was good! It was actually pretty hard but good hard. I was sweating! I actually wrote it down afterwards so I could re-do:

Antony got his courtesy car whilst I was at the gym, which is great news as I get my car back! It's a nice little car as well. Now we wait for his mashed up car to be taken away and either repaired or written off.

Then yep, back to work as normal. I then left work and headed to meet Lois at her dad's house to we could go out for a chill in a pub for her birthday celebrations. It's a Thurs and we're all trying to eat healthily so it was a chilled meet up. 

We all have a diet coke and chatted away. We gave Lois her pressies which she seemed to like! They were all pretty girly and smelly stuff, so she's going to have the best pamper sesh on Saturday! Kinda jealous.. kinda might have to get some smelly stuff on lunch and copy her.

So yeah, it was a nice evening, we just had a catch up and a gossip as usual! The guy Sarah is seeing seems to be totally into her! Which is really nice, I'm hoping it works out for her as being in a happy relationship is awesome!

I headed home and munched my (healthy!) dinner as soon as I got home as I was starving! This is the first day in forever I've actually eaten well and I plan on sticking to it as I just feel so much better about like when I eat well/gym!

Anyway, after doing a couple bits for the next day me and Ant chilled on the sofa. My fave.

Bank hols

Sunday I literally slobbed for the entire day! I know it seems like a waste and obviously being hungover sucks. But I do quite enjoy a ridiculously lazy day. 

I binge watched the whole of 13 Reasons Why, which is a very sad and deep show about a girl who commits suicide. She leaves 13 tapes for people explaining how they contributed to her death. Horrible right?! So yeah, I watched the whole thing. 

I cried a fair few times and Antony ended up going to Mattys.. I cant understand why! 

I literally got up only to pee and eat more food, it was fabulous. 

Then Monday was a bank holiday and I felt better! I love waking up feeling human again, it's always good. 

Ant and I woke up quite late, which we really needed. And then we cleared up the house.. okay, I wrote that then remembered actually I cleared up the house. Antony has this tactic where as soon as I say lets sort the house out he needs a fag.. or a poop.. AGG!

So once the house was tidy anyway, we had some food and then I got ready. Our friend Emma was having a bbq for her boyfriend's birthday. We headed there, picking up some drinks on the way.

It was really nice! Me and Emma used to be really really close but now we only really see each other at social events. So it's nice when we do! It was an awesome day, sitting around chatting, eating and drinking. We talked a lot about Rupaul and Love Island and so Ant had to 'grin and bear it' as he later told me!

Here’s me and Ant... both loving life... 

That night was a bitch to try and sleep as I was so full of food and it was so hot!! The thought of work the next day as well just.. ugh!

Me and Ant woke up Tuesday feeling so rubbish. Neither had had enough sleep at all.

It was raining and really gloomy.. back to work after a long weekend and no sleep.. really sucked. But we ploughed through! I need to take Ant to work and back now after Friday'sincident.. actually I say that, he drives as I hate his dodgy parking at his work. So yeah, it's quite annoying as I start later and finish earlier than him! So I ended up walking from my work to his in the pouring rain and waiting for him. 

We got home, made lunches and then I got in a nice long bath. Finally. 

We ended up going to Burger King as we have vouchers. So its nice and cheap.. and we just cant seem to be healthy these days! It's doing my head in. 

I want to gym, and eat healthy and get enough sleep but it's not going to plan at all. 

It's now Wednesday morning and I'm determined to eat well and gym after work.. I can do this! 

Crashing the party

Well Friday night was actually a little more eventful than planned! Ant called me to say he had been in a car accident! He told me he was fine.. PHEW.. that someone had gone into the back of him. 

Ant and I can be very different in these kinds of situations, I tend to worry and panic and act like a child! And Antony is like.. oh well.. shit happens. Which is really good as it calms me down and it makes a whole lot more sense that my stupid reaction! 

So anyway, after him sending me lots of pics and telling me he was fine over and over again (he hates being fussed over!) he was actually allowed to drive the car home!

Ants is the black car. 

Clearly, it's not okay to drive anymore but was good he could drive home and not have to wait around to be towed etc. 

So after Ant called his insurance company, we ordered pizza and decided to enjoy our evening still.

Saturday morning, we got up and decided to go for a walk as we were both up early, the sun was shining and we could do with getting a few bits whilst we were out. Oh and we skipped gym so this was easy exercise. 

WELL I say easy exercise, the way there was great! Well apart from Ant is just constantly a mean pie (mp) to me and wont hold my hand and be cute.. until I punch him that it muaha.

We got into Egham and ended up in a pub. It was 5 somewhere or whatever that saying is.. had a drink and then went into Tesco and get a few bits for home. Mainly booze. 

So the way back was so hard!! It was so hot and we had to carry so much.. we were dying when we got home. 

Anyway, we got back, got showered and started getting ready for the day. I ended up giving Ant a lift to Matty's which was stresssssssssful as it was super hot and I was rushing to get back and get ready for RUPAUL EVENT.

Anyway, the girls arrived (Hannah and Abby) we listened to Rupaul, drank and got ready.. sweating! It was literally too hot to function. 

We were pretty drunk before we left as we tend to try and get really drunk before we leave.. stupid idea but great at the time! 

We got an uber and then a train and faffed over the journey for ages! BUT we eventually made it and the queue looked massive! I ended up leaving the queue to go to a corner shop and get a bottle of wine for us to share.. we sooo did not need this at all. Especially as we had to down it as the queue moved faster than expected. 

We got in.. and went to the bar! Can you see where this is going??

We got to a good spot so that we could see and not be to squished.. we waited around for quite a while for the drag queens to come on. We expected Michelle Visage which we were suuuper excited about but instead we just got a video of her at the beginning.. still cool I guess. And then Lady Bunny was the host.. who we didnt know much about other than the queens talking about her in the show.

Anyway they finally came on and it was AMAZING! To see them all in the flesh we were all fangirling big time! Properly screaming as they all walked round the stage. 

They then all took it in turns to perform, which is them lip syncing. The first was someone I dont hugely like.. which is annoying as I remember her the most clearly. 

Next was Kim Chi! She was bloody awesome! Then I don't actually rememeber who was next as we drank lots and just got messy. Shame on us. Really do regret this as I was so looking forward to seeing them all! 

I do remember a few performances and really really enjoying myself! I also (kind of) remember going up to the bar and I must have lent over it or done something stupid because the whole thing fell on me!

 Apparently Hannah and Abby turned round and I was on the floor with the bar, straws and mats all on top of me! (sorry mum! but the bar musnt have been in the ground in my defence?) 

So we ended up leaving anyway, and then stuck in the pouring rain and a massive thunderstorm whilst we waited for a cab! Kinda fun.. kinda not! Then yeah, the journey home was really long as we missed one train, had to wait for another.. then another cab.. etc etc. 

I went straight to bed when we got home! Which sucks cos we should have taken it slowly! We should have enjoyed every second of the show.. then gone back to mine and played Rupaul songs and carried on.. one day we'll learn.. one day.. 

The next morning it turned out Abby had slept downstairs and I don't think was too happy with me and Hannah.. I get the impression it was me and Hannah being really messy and not all of us like I thought!