Morning madness

Monday mornings are the best arent they?

Especially when you clear your cat's litter out then 2 seconds later one of them, not only poops right away but also walks the poop it through the house. 

Ah, just a lovely start to the day! I also stepped in one of the poop paw prints.. haha, just my luck. 

But even though that was the start to my day, I'm feeling happy.

Nothing special going on today, just work, body pump at lunch then home really.

I did some housey bits this morning so I've got next to nothing to do when I get home, which is so nice for a Monday evening. 

Antony recently split the money left in the joint account he shared with his brother.. and not to steal his money BUT... if he's not going to spend it or plan how to spend it, then I might just have to! Okay, that sounds really bad, I don't mean to sound like a gold digger.

We just have loads we need to do around the house.. and Antony won't plan or do anything unless I give him a nudge.. or 20.

The first priority (in my opinion) is getting a cat flap. Our cats love going outside but at the moment can only go out when we're there, which is evenings and weekends but not all of the day sometimes.

And it would be fabulous if the cats could poop outside!! 

The other things on the list are, paint pretty much every room, new carpets, new bathroom, sort the garden out and most importantly (to Ant) is sorting out the mancave/garage at the back of the garden. 

We have these big ideas and it is really exciting.. we just need to get started! So we have started talking about that today. These are the 2 really awesome and artistic pictures we drew:

Mines the white one.. Ants is done on snapchat so not great, neither are to be honest!

Okay, so we have some work to do.. I really really want to get to work on the house/mancave/everywhere to be honest because the house is lovely... but does need work! We were happy to just live in it as it was because getting our own home together was sobloody  amazing and all we wanted for so long. Now I think we’re ready to make it our own and make it look modern. 

We just always seem to have plans every weekend, and when we don't we just want to chill!

I really hope that we can start to plan and get the ball rolling soon because at the moment, nothing really matches and when we show people round we say oh we want to do this and that... I want to be showing people round like look! We did this and it looks good right!? 

Anyway, I’m getting quotes together for the back door/cat flap (thinking of just getting a whole new door) and so hopefully this will be the start.

I’m currently sat with a cute little kitty on my lap, which I don’t think I write enough about! 

I love my little babies so so much and I really do think they love us too! Sooty who is very timid around other people is so confident with us and it really makes me happy. 

Love my lil family in our lil home. 

Sunday Slobday

This weekend has been so nice and chilled, I've loved it!

Saturday after cleaning my house and then having a nice bath, I painted my nails and sat with Antony whilst he played his game.

Ant's mum brought round some cupboards for storage in the mancave, which was great.. apart from the fact that I had swept and mopped the floor and ... it was ruined by grass and muddy foot prints about an hour later *upside down smile emoji*

Anyway, that's my mini moan over, can't have a post without at least one moan!

So Saturday evening we were going out for Ant's mum' birthday so we got ready and headed into Staines. As we arrived we heard Hannah, Ant's sis and one of my mates, shouting out the window of her brother's car 'wait for me!! They're refusing to walk with me!!'

Hannah had a wig party after the meal we were going to and looked... different.

She had pink/orangey hair, multi coloured fur cardigan on and little mini skirt.. she looked awesome, just maybe not for Nandos and cinema!

Anyway, Nandos was yummy and nice to see everyone. Halloumi sticks are my absolute favourite thing at the moment, with chilli jam, they're so nice! Dinner was slightly rushed as we had to get to the cinema.

We got to the cinema and Ant spent £15 on sweets and ice cream.. I got the fanta frozen which is so nice and I haven't had in years!

We were seeing Infinity War which is an Avengers film. This is something Ant loves, as do his family, not something I would usually watch. But it was so good! We all really enjoyed it.

I am such an early bird so I was really tired after the film. It was only about 11pm but I wake before 7 every day and so I always want to go to sleep early (unless having a sesh haha).

So we came home, we had a cuppa tea and then went to bed.

I woke up at 8:47! Which was after Antony! This makes me so happy and I love when Ant is the one awake before me because it's so rare and it means he brings me coffee and I get to be the sleepy one.

Anyway, I woke up, got ready and went off to the gym.

I have almost closed my rings for this whole month but recently cheated a little, I put the watch on exercise when I was cleaning my house and so yes, I closed my rings, but no I didn't really do a workout.

So I had my break yesterday and today I went to a tone class. I have to say it was a lot of cardio for a tone class! But I enjoyed it a lot.

I went to Sainsburys and then to my friend Chris' house who recently left the company I work for.

I had a coffee and a catch up and he showed me round his lovely house/cabin at the back of his garden. The cabin is so awesome, a really chilled out area with an amazing hot tub in it. I am looking after his cats for the next two weeks as he is going to California.

Chris' house is in between mine and work so should be quite easy to fit into my routine and I love cats of course so will be nice!

I text Lois earlier and mentioned we could have our Tuesday catch up there!

I then came home and after a quick shower, started making a chilli.

I really enjoy cooking and so when I'm feeling fresh on a Sunday, take the opportunity to make food and freeze it. So I made loads of chilli and marinated chicken for tonight's curry.

Me and Ant are making a chicken and spinach balti, I've not made this before so hoping it's yummy!

Obviously it's Sunday so it's the law to slob. So once I'd sorted foody bits out, I plonked myself next to Antony who is, surprise surprise, playing his playstation.

I've watched about 3 episodes of First Dates and now I think I'll watch Educating Greater Manchester.

I want to distract myself away from the fact the weekend is almost over! But I am feeling good, after a nice and chilled weekend I feel I am going to work anxiety and tiredness free. Well hopefully anyway!

Weekend is here

Thursdays work social went well!

I have to say I was so anxious about it most of the day, sweating but not hot and just worrying about what could go wrong and that I might mess it up. And the work deodorant smelt like man so I’m oretty sure I did for the rest of the night.

We left work and all headed into Feltham where the bowling alley was.

We got to the desk and I checked us all in, got the drinks and the food ordered and then got the games started!

I was so so bad. Almost every ball went straight down the side.. but you know I was there to make sure everyone was sorted and having a good time. So my aim was to be really rubbish so that everyone else felt good about how they were doing!

We had another drink and switched the teams around, it was good fun!

We then headed to Nando’s which was a short walk away.. I thought I knew where it was, until turning a corner and it not being where I expected. I definitely had a little panic inside because 20 odd people were following me!

Luckily it was just round the next corner. Phew.

Then the mayhem! We all got to our big table at the back, it was loud and the whole place was so packed! In Nando’s they don’t come and take your order so it was up to me to go around the table and get everyone’s order. It was slightly challenging as people were not specific! But all fine.

I went off to the till to order 700 chicken thighs..

Eventually everyone got their meal and we all sat eating and chatting  away. We had a good laugh.. At the end, my director said it was well organised and seemed happy. Massive relief.

Then next morning was FriYaY!

I dont really have much planned for this weekend and am looking forward to a chill to be honest as this week has been miserable at times and I have to say I’ve been pretty anxious for a lot of the week.

Talking about anxiety..

A couple years ago I went on a work trip to somewhere where they spoke about bomb making, interesting stuff! It was just me and one of the other guy that worked with me, Mark.

Everything was fine, until 2 people walked up to us and started chatting away. Out of nowhere I had what I compare to an out of body experience .. sounds weird and probably dramatic but anyway.

I just couldn’t speak or move and I felt like my head was too big and heavy for my body.

My thoughts didn’t feel like normal thoughts in my head.

I was sweaty and feeling really hot and my brain just wouldn’t work. I had absolutely no idea what was happening. I just remember feeling stuck where I was and had no idea what to do. It honestly felt like I had taken a hallucinogenic drug or something.

I took myself off to the loo and just tried to breath but all I kept thinking was what the hell is happening to me?!

The rest of the day was awful because I just kept trying to play it cool but all I could think was what if it happens again. There was no-one I could talk to and Mark was my lift so I couldn’t leave even though that’s all I wanted to do!

So I’m pretty sure I had some sort of panic attack, but why! I still don’t know.

Since then I’ve had a pretty bumpy ride with anxiety. I always think that’s going to happen again and I genuinely feel my life has been different since that day.

Now I get hot and bothered randomly and worry about all sorts of things. It’s not all the time, it’s mainly at work or maybe even some social events but not too often.

I have to fight my own thoughts. Really tell myself everything is fine and ask myself what am I actually worrying about. I have to remind myself where I am, who I have around me and really calm myself down.

Anyway the reason I spoke about this is because this week I’ve had a bit of a bad time with it. With the worry of drinking too much over the previous weekend, having an argument with Antony and the work social.

I got home yesterday feeling so drained. But! I had some wine and ordered a curry and enjoyed my night.

Today I’ve woken up feeling positive, cleaned my entire house and now chilling in the bath.

This has been a very long post so i’ll leave it there. To anyone else who has had a similar experience or struggling with anxiety. It’s okay to feel like that! It’s actually a lot more common that I first thought., just breathe and remind youself. Life. Is. Good. And you are okay!

Life

So I wasn't going to post until tomorrow to be honest, but then my mum was asking why I hadn't posted. I haven't posed because I haven't had the best couple of days! I didn't want to have depressive and moany posts on here, but then my mum, quite rightly said that it won't be a true account of my life without the moany posts! 

I wanted this blog to be able to look back on how life was for me at 24! Even the negative bits.

So, mum you asked for it!

On Tuesday, I spent the majority of the day feeling pretty down about the fact that I drank too much over the weekend and ended up having a drama with Emily. Me and Emily are quite close friends considering we don't see each other all the time and she's my brother's gf. So it was upsetting to have a drama and know it was my fault! 

It's all fine now as we have spoken about it and know it was just drunken stupidity. But yeah, I spent most of Tuesday moping about and worrying about what people think of me when I drink. I drink to have a good time! I hate the thought of people thinking I am bringing the mood down or ruining the fun! I am going to really try and drink in moderation whatever that means.. so I'm gonna drink until I'm a fun level and not go past it.. and past it.....aaaand past it. 

Anyway, I cheered up when I got home and me and Antony had a stair cuddle. Stair cuddles are the absolute best! I am only 5 foot and so if I stand on the bottom stair and Antony on the floor means we have a really good hug! I genuinely find its a healing hug, so soppy but its really helps. 

Wednesday was a normal work day to be honest, not much to report! Just work, meet Ant for lunch/coffee and back to work. 

I actually went into Primark after work to treat myself to some new tops and shoes as it was payday.

I got home and did some house work and waited for Ant to come home. Lois had text me she'd had a bit of drama with her boyfriend and then when I mentioned it to Antony, we ended up having a bit of a drama! So yesterday wasn't much fun either BUT we have talked it through and are fine.. me and Antony never ever argue unless its just petty like 'put your shoes in the shoe area for god sake!!'

So having this drama yesterday hurt alot because it's so unlike us. But as I said, we are fine now and I can't wait to see him at 12 for a squeeze!

Today my manager is back in work and I am looking forward to seeing her tanned self and hearing all the holiday stories. 

After work we are all off to bowling and then Nandos which should be good fun! I am slightly anxious about it just because I am the organiser so I need to be loud and get everything together, sort drink order and food orders out. I am looking forward to it, but as I said I'm 5 foot and tiny so I sometimes feel like how am I supposed to organise 20 people! But I am a loudmouth and I'm sure it will all go fine. 

I'll let you know how it goes!

Last min lunch

As you know if you read my super exciting blog.. my dad and family all left yesterday to head back home. Or did they?!

I was texting my dad to see what he was up to whilst I was at work and he ended up coming to meet me and Ant for lunch! It was so nice to have that little extension on our weekend and we went to Nostrano Lounge which I love. It's so cute and cosy. And the food is really good, I always get the soup. Mm Mm. 

That really cheered my Monday up! 

What else cheered me up is after getting home from work/gym, my house was clean and tidy!! 

My family had emptied my dishwasher, hung up my washing, empty the bins.. and yeah, made everywhere look lovely. Which I am SO grateful for as I was thinking I'd get home, have a proper clean and tidy then just go to bed. But I managed to be chilling on the sofa by half 6! I also slept at half 9! Beautiful.

Oh, they also left us this note:

I woke up this morning feeling refreshed and ready for the day! I did write a to do list of things I want to do when I get in, like tidy the secret places where I plonked stuff! And I want to have a nice long bath and have another early night because I just love my sleep.

My day has just gone from quite positive to really quite shite though. 

At the weekend when we went to the food festival I had a bit of a drama with my brother's girlfriend. Which was really stupid because we are quite close and get on really well! 

Anyway, long story short my mums just told me some home truths about how I am an idiot when I'm drunk and change.. and now I'm sat here thinking about how everyone talks about me and how much of a twat I am when I drink.. just feels really really crap. It's no-ones fault other than my own that I am feeling down now because I do drink too much and I should stop when I'm feeling pissed!

So I'm not really gonna write much more because it would just be depressing! 

Hopefully my next post will be a happier one. 

Sunday funday

Sundays I always find slightly depressing.

For me, I always wake up really hungover and then the realisation of work sets in later and its just a bit meh.

But, on this occasion it wasn't so bad at all! I mean, I did wake up feeling pretty rough in the end but managed to shake it off and make us all a fry up and again, out into the sunshine!

I am so glad Antony returned the set of table and chairs for outside because the new ones are so much better (obviously) and we've used them every day since! It's been so nice. Especially as there's been 10 of us at certain points and my house isn't huge!

Anyway, so back to Sunday. We spent most of the day chilling in the garden, talking about the usual, weather, holidays, serial killers.. you know.

We then all bundled into the cars to go and visit Runnymede Air force Memorial. It was pretty incredible to be honest.

The view from the top was awesome! You could see Windsor Castle and Heathrow.





Obviously, it's an awful reason as to why it exists but I also thought it was such a lovely way to remember those who fought for us. We had a wander round for a while and Antony was giving me a History lesson.. I should have listened in school really!

We then left to go to the Magna Carta but that was closed, so we just went for a walk around. We did look at the 'Jurors' which I googled as I couldn't explain what they were: ' Twelve intricately worked bronze chairs stand together on this ancient meadow. Each chair incorporates symbols and imagery representing concepts of law and key moments in the struggle for freedom, rule of law and equal rights. The Jurors is not a memorial, but rather an artwork that aims to examine the changing and ongoing significance and influences of Magna Carta.'




They were really cool! And now I really want to learn more about this kind of thing.. I want to go back to school to be honest and really concentrate because I feel like I didn't make the most of it at all.

We were all feeling pretty tired now so we headed back home.

Connor used to be a chef and so offered to make us all a cheesy, creamy, spinachy, leeky, amazing pasta bake. Omg it was incredible! And I have it tonight too as there was loads left!

So, we ate this delicious meal and then it was time for Connor and his girlfriend Emily to leave. I really hate this part..

We said our goodbyes and my dad dropped them to the train station.

Feeling really tired after a weekend of drinking in the sun, we pretty much all went to bed when my dad got back. I slept so awfully as all I could think about was going back to work and routine.. was dreaming about making salads for lunches.

Anyway, so it's Monday morning and I'm feeling a little bit sad as when I get home after work, my house is going to be empty and quiet. I absolutely love seeing my family but having to say bye again really sucks when they live so far away!

We really did have such an amazing weekend! So many laughs were had and memories were made. It's been so so much fun and I want to re-do it all.. but maybe tomorrow so I can catch up on some sleep first.

Food festival

Waking up yesterday morning at 7 then going back to sleep until 8 was so impressive! Finally later than 6am!

I got up and went for a run, the weather is still so nice! I seriously wish it could be sunny allllll year round.

So after my run, I got back, showered and got ready to sit in the sun again! We all had some breakfast and chilled outside with a drink.

My older brother Adam came round with his girlfriend Erika too. Erika brought me some clothes round which I love! She’s given me loads of her clothes in the past and it’s beaut because.. new clothes obviously! But also they’re better than mine as I’m a cheapskate and just shop and primark and matalan whereas Erika has better brands!

Anyway, so we all went off to the station to make our way to Richmond where the food festival was.

We arrived and all went straight to the different bars. Antony got a beer, I got cider, Karen and Beth had pimms, Connor and Emily had cocktails, Erika had prossecco and I think Adam had beer! More like an alcohol festival than food so far!

There was a band playing some typical music that everyone knows the words to, like queen and I can’t remember the name of the song but all I keep singing is ‘sweet dreams are made of cheese, who am I to disabrie’ hopefully you know the one.. kind of.

So we all decided to go off and get the food we liked and meet on the grass. Antony’s friend was working at the festival which is how we heard of it. And we went over to say Hi and he made us 2 mixed meat Greek pitta wrap things. It was amazing! It was a big pitta bread with chips, garlicy sauce with about 3/4 different meats. Yum.

We sat and ate and chilled for a bit. It started to rain a little which was annoying as we’d all taken the piss out of Antony for bringing a jacket ... now I had to ask nicely to borrow it. He let me until I started singing rupaul and then took it away until I stopped.







We ended up going for a wander and getting more drinks. I was getting very drunk quite quickly, to be honest everyone was! Apart from my dad of course as he doesn’t drink at all.

We saw a sign shop and Karen bought Antony a mancave sign which is damn cool!

To be honest, I know a lot more happened but it’s a little bit blurry from here on as I had a lot a lot of 6% cider... ooh I also had a vimto cider which was amazing!

Okay so yeah, I’m not sure on a lot that happened next. I do remember lots of photos being taken and being dragged across the grass by Connor and then him and Emily touching my neck and me being dramatic about it. I remember a lot of being picked up and picking people up and yes. It was all very drunken. I don’t remember the journey home and I’m pretty sure soon after getting home I ended up in bed feeling sick.. it was about 9pm.

Party animal me (Jamie T, if you know, you know) 

I’ve just woken up, feeling surprisingly fresh for how much booze I had but I guess I’ve also slept for 10 hours ha. 

I just made a cheese spread sandwich and cleaned the garlic butter Antony spilt all over the sofa. Looks like pizza was ordered. Gutted I missed out! 

I’m having sooty (kitty) cuddles and debating whether to go to the gym now or later. Cos I could watch the new rupaul.. 

Family fun

Today’s post is very positive!

So after work on Thursday I went and got my haircut and then came home to finish off any last bits before my family arrived.

Antony set up the replacement table and chairs, yay! So when we had finished everything, we sat outside and relaxed with a beverage.

First to arrive was my twin bro Connor. He came in, farted in every room and then needed a poo! Typical Connor..

Not long after, my dad, step mum and sister arrived. So exciting! And so strange to have them here as we’re usually in Manchester. I showed them around and then we sat and ordered pizza. Beaut.

We didn’t stay up too much longer as it was already about 1am at this point so we all went off to bed.

I woke up at 6 as per usual.. which is so very annoying. I got up, went for a run and then when I got back me and my sister sat in the sun chatting away and painting our nails. And screaming about the wasps! My step mum, Karen came and joined and we had a nice chill.

Once everyone else was up I made them some brekkie and we all got ready for the day.

Me, my dad, Connor (twinnie) and Beth (sister) played the longest game of cards ever which was hilarious. Making stupid noises to do the reverse card and Connor showing us a magic trick which was made better by his silly sound effects.

After picking my brothers girlfriend Emily up we all got back to mine and sat in the sun with prossecco cocktail Karen had made. It was yummy! And many laughs were bad.

Antony got back after finishing work and we got ready and headed to Turtle Bay.

We got there and ordered lots of cocktails to start. Beth is only 16 but always seems to get away with drinking. She is gorgeous and does her make up so well! I am jealous of her! We look the same age. We’re both 5foot. We actually had to ask someone in Sainsbury’s to pass up something from the top shelf earlier in the day and the man laughed at us calling us short! We know mate.. we know.

The food in Turtle Bay was Caribbean and delicious. We had such a laughs as we always do.

We came home and attempted to play cards against humanity but to be honest we were all so tired - especially me who ended up being a grump because I’d not got enough sleep the night before!

So me and Beth headed up, not before checking the weather for the next day as we’re going to a food festival in Richmond. Looking forward to it, my other brother and his girlfriend are also coming to meet us so should be good!

Friday(ish)

Before I've even started writing this post I already know it's gonna be.. less positive that usual. So apologies for that!

Last night Antony picked up a table and chair set for the garden, which we were really excited about as it's sunny and have family coming this weekend. 

So when we got home I started to do the house cleaning and sorting all bedding etc out.. fun stuff, I know. And Antony started to set up the table and chairs. Anyway, fast forward about 2/3 hours and I've done the cleaning and Antony is still faffing with the table and chairs. Basically it was faulty and Ant just sweated out in the sun for 3 hours trying to put a faulty table together ARGH. 

So not only was that a load of wasted effort.. we still have no outside seating. 

To top the night off, when we gave up and decided to chill, the bloody cat wouldn't come in (like to keep them in at night) and we ended up chasing one round the garden whilst our pizza went cold. 

So, to this morning.. I woke up and did some exercise in the garden, it was lovely! It was sunny and was nice to watch the kitties play outside. Also this is my 23rd day streak of exercising/closing the rings on my watch! God I can't wait for the 1st May to do absolutely nothing.

It's supposedly going to hit 27 degrees today. So after a shower and waking Ant up, I thought let's find something summery to wear. 

Sooo, this is where it all goes wrong and where I'm going to contradict something I said in an earlier post. In my earlier post I said how I don't exercise to change the way I look.. and to be honest, that's still true-ish. 

But, I got so upset this morning putting a skirt on and wondering why why why, when I exercise almost everyday am I still looking in the mirror at myself in a skirt and crying! It's ridiculous. 

I just hate my legs/knees so much and it upsets me. I should feel confident about my body and sometimes, like today, I just don't. 

Anyway, I decided to keep the skirt on because a) it's gonna be bloody hot and b) because I CAN wear a skirt and not worry about my stupid god damn chubby pasty legs!! ARGH AGAIN.

Okay, I think I got it out of my system. I want to be positive and happy today, especially as it's my Friday and the sun is shining and everything. is. good. 

I am so looking forward to 12, I'm going to meet Antony and we're going to eat a baguette by the river, in the sun.

Antony is so good, last night he kept his cool and stayed happy (I probably would have smashed up the table!) and this morning trying to cheer me up. What a gem.

Right, I'm off. Hoping the next post will be super happy and not like this one!

Happy hump day! *insert camel emoji*

As I mentioned yesterday, I got a key cut for my best friend Lois. I made her close her eyes and put her hand out and when she saw what it was she cried! Haha, so cute! 

We are so similar it's scary, the amount of times we've talked about our future weddings and having babies and both looked at each other with tears in our eyes. It's ridiculous. 

I can't tell you how awesome it is to have a bestie who is so like you so you know you can be yourself 101%. I really hope that we both read this blog back together when we're 40 and can talk about how we really did have our weddings and babies. Right I have to stop now before I get emotional! 

So, after we recovered from the key, we had some dinner and headed to Aldi! We were both (again we are sad) quite excited about going to Aldi. 

I spent over £100 (a lot for Aldi!) and it was bloody hard work packing it all and putting it in my car and then unpacking it again at home.. Phew! So nice to have a full kitchen now though ready for the busy weekend ahead. 

It's such a beautiful day today, the sunshine really does make me happy. It's just a shame that today will mostly be working and then home to completely clean and tidy the whole house. I asked Lois if she fancied coming round again tonight.. for some reason she wasn't keen. 

I'm going to meet Antony for lunch in a bit and hopefully we can sit by the river in Staines and enjoy an hour of sunshine. 

Today is my Thursday as I am off Friday to spend time with the family. So I'm in such a good mood, ready for the weekend!! Currently listening to George Ezra which was recommended to me over the weekend. 

I'm enjoying his album so far to be honest.. Right better do some work. 

Adios

Just a typical Tuesday

Good morning invisible but also possibly none existent blog readers! 

So I didn't write anything yesterday and that's mainly because I was a) busy but also b) nothing really happened. It was basically: work, gym, home, housey stuff, chill and bed! So thrilling. 

One thing I did do is call my dad. He, my step mum, my sister, my twin and my twin's girlfriend are coming to stay with me this weekend. I am super excited!! I've never had people round like this really. We moved in in January and we've had loads of people stay but never for a few days.. Should be good fun! Especially as my dad and family live in Manchester and twin now lives in Southampton,  so we really don't see each other as much as we'd all like to. 

I am a mahooosive stresshead though I must admit. I am worrying about my house being clean, tidy, comfortable for everyone, enough food in the house, enough space (I have a 2 bed house, my brother and his gf are going to stay in the mancave). So yeah really excited, also a tad anxious. 

I am mostly anxious about my cats. They are still only 7 months and I worry about them being scared away for a whole 4 days! They won't have anywhere to hide either really because they'll be people everywhere! But as my boyf and my dad keep saying.. they'll have to get used to people. I suppose! 

So tonight my bestie, Lois, who is literally my rock and has been since we were about 13.. is coming over to have dinner, gossip, moan and to do a big shop. We've made it a weekly thing for her to come round for dinner and a goss every Tuesday, which is awesome. I'm going to go and get her a key cut at lunch so she can chill in the house if she's there before me or if I'm out and she's around to look after my kitties! I'm sure she'll love having a key.. we're so alike and quite sad with things like this. 

I don't really have much else to say to be honest! I am basically waiting for 5pm (as usual) so I can head home to make me and Lois some broccoli, pesto, chicken pasta! Yum! 

Oh, one thing is that the boyf recently bought me a new car (I know legend right??) and I was in traffic to work this morning and it started vibrating whilst sat in 1st and making a really awful screeching/screaming noise.. so I am really worried about that as I've only just got it and still in the process of getting rid of my old car! Finger's crossed it's all fine. 

Adulting is hard.

Closing the rings

I have an apple watch, which I love having - mainly for fitness reasons. As I said in a previous post I have a slightly unhealthy/healthy obsession with exercising and keeping fit. I love exercising but sometimes beat myself up about it..

BUT lets be positive and talk about the good side. I honestly get so much enjoyment from exercising and keeping fit, I love seeing how I can improve and feeling stronger.

I feel so confident about exercise, I'm pretty sure it's the thing I feel most confident doing.

I used to just go to the gym and do cardio for an hour and then wonder why nothing was changing.. then I discovered gym classes and different bootcamps and this brought in weights and things I hadn't tried.

Now I favour weight training and constantly trying to push myself to lift heavier! I don't exercise to lose weight or necessarily change the way I look, I really enjoy it, like people enjoy taking part in a sport. Obviously it's great when you notice differences in the way you look though!

So anyway, back to the Apple watch.. god I do ramble. The apple watch has 3 rings: stand for a minute each hour 12 times, 30 mins of exercise and then the move goals is set for you based on what you did the previous week (mine is 400 calories a day most of the time).

So yeah, this really motivates me to exercise. I try and do 5/6 days a week.. usually hanging for at least one day a week ha! But recently I've randomly set myself a challenge to close the rings every day this month.. I don't remember why but I now have to do it and so far so good! Today is my 19th day of closing all the rings.. I've never done this much!

I spend a lot of time in the classes at the gym which I love as it means I work muscles I wouldn't usually focus on (like shoulders for example) and I go to the gym so often I know the instructors and so I know it's cringy but I feel like it’s quite homey.

I also go into the 'mancave' (garage at back of house) and do my own workouts in there a lot. The boyf wants to make it his mancave but I really want a gym! So we're going to 'share' pretty sure I'm getting about 20% for the gym stuff.. which is fine with me to be honest!

I've added some pics of the sort of stuff I do in the mancave.. I improvise a lot and obviously I don't have actual qualifications in Health and Fitness so I make up the name of exercises I don't know.

Hopefully you can read when you zoom...

Weekend fun

So yesterday the boyf absolutely LOVED the bungee jump. He is crazy like that, he just doesn’t feel fear... he’s done a 160ft bungee and a skydive before this 300ft bungee and he loved them all! Think I was more nervous than he was. He lept off and was shouted yeaaaah!! Love him.

He was buzzing afterwards and we went for some lunch in Staines where they had animals and all sorts going on. Weird day so far really!




We then got ready and our friend Tay drove myself the boyf (Ant), Matty and Ade to our friend Sammy’s housewarming party. Tay put on awful awful rap music in the car which was funny but as I said.. awful! I was also in the middle of 2 men where there wasn’t actually a seat and it was so hot! So yeah it was a bit of a sweaty mess.

When we arrived it was pretty quiet and we very quickly changed that, loud voices and lots of laughter. Lots and lots of booze... Love going out with the boyfs lot, we always have proper belly laughs.

We played beer pong, I got a total of one ping pong ball in the other teams cup and drank a total of no beer at all as it’s rank! I was on the boys team so they drank it for me.

I always seem to hang out with the boys over the girls. I just get on with them so much more.. I don’t know if that makes girls dislike or judge me but I just feel like I fit in with the boys better. Don’t get me wrong, I love all the girls in Ants group and I am good friends with them! 

My proper besties are girls who I love but I mean at parties and get togethers with the boyfs’ lot the boys have such a laugh and a joke and the girls tend to sit around and talk about life... I like the jokes and booze more to be honest!

 So yeah, we got pretty drunk and Ade and Matty came back to ours so we could order and eat pizza. I actually ended up sitting in bed and drunk texting my mum rather than hanging with them downstairs, it was only around half 10 at this point too! Think we started drinking around 4.

It’s currently 6:16am as I woke up at half 5, I hate when this happens, I just can’t get back to sleep even though I sooo tired. I want to wake Ant up but he’d kill me... gonna find me some cats to cuddle.

07:17

Don’t you just love it when you wake up on a Saturday morning feeling like you’ve had a lovely lie in.. and it’s 07:17am. Lush! NOT.

Sun is shining though at last and I’m so happy about it! Everything is made better with sunshine and blue skies, I think. 

So I woke up, went into the ‘mancave’ (the garage at the back of the house we want to make into a living space one day). And did a workout... until my kitty got through the only gap in our garden. I quite literally panicked as I am a big whimp and I did that weird movement of left, right, left, right.. WHICH WAY AM I GOING. 

My choices were try and open the garage door (not gonna happen realistically) and make him go towards the house or run and get the cat treats. 

I’m happy to say the cat treats won and he came running in. He’s just like his owners.. food is life. 

So then the boyf’s mum came round as we’re going to Windsor today so the boyf can do a 300ft bungee jump! Not sure why but hopefully he’ll enjoy it. 

I’m in the bath now and he’s currently cooking up some bacon... happy Saturday everyone!

                 

FriYAY

So as I was falling asleep last night, I was thinking why am I writing this blog.. it’s not like I’m special in anyway or have very exciting life.. or more so than anyone else anyway.

But then I thought.. it’s just so different from getting likes, or follows or retweets.. its for me to just enjoy writing about life for no real reason and not checking it to see who’s looked at it and just.. not caring too much to be honest!

I think the main reason it to be able to look back in years and remember how life was..

Anyway!  Just some night time thoughts.

So, I woke up.. well was woken up by the boyf snoring next to me this morning. Then as soon as I open the bedroom door the cats run to me and I HAVE to go and feed them so I’m clearly wide awake by now.

So I got up to go for a run, I did 5K in 31 minutes and I cant help but feel disheartened afterwards as I did 5K in 26 mins previously and now I’m just hard on myself wondering why I can’t get that again!

I’ve exercised for 17 days in a row so far and I feel knackered but I’ve got a bit of an unhealthy/healthy obsession with exercise… nothing too serious of course!

Off to work and I am wishing my day away so me and the boyf can go to Jimmy Spices, a place where it’s buffet style with all kinds of foods: Indian, Italian, Chinese.. etc. 

I’m going to eat so bloody much and I can’t wait. Oh and wine, can’t wait for wine. 

Day 1 of blogging

So, my first official post!

My manager has gone on holiday for the next two weeks which means I have to deal with some of her work which I’m not used to. And I’ve lost my work bestie!

Part of me is in full on panic mode as there are somethings I’m worried about having to do but then another part of me is saying ‘guuuuurl you got this!’

I may quote rupaul a lot as I am completely obsessed with the Rupaul’s Dragrace show and I am not ashamed about it either, hunny!

So after the first day without my manager which had a couple of ups and down, I had a quick gym sesh and then home to chill..

Nothing exciting to report, just that my lovely new kitties are getting more and more confident as days go by which I love. Apart from the fact we let them outside and it worries me they’ll leg it when they have the chance ha!

Now to chill and watch homeland which my manager recently completely ruined for me as she didn’t realise that I was only on the second series.

Friday tomorrow and I’m already excited for the 5pm finish! My lovely boyfriend is taking me out for dinner. Can’t. Wait.

As the pic below I’m gonna find me a kittle to cuddle 😊

P.s - as I was about to post this we had to get the kitty in as he jumped out the window! They do wanna leg it!!

This is the beginning of the record you like

So! Here goes nothing.. 

I decided to start a blog, I thought it would be cool to note down some of the stuff going on in my life. I wanted to be able to look back at it in a few years time and take a trip down memory lane! 

I recently found my mum's old blog and it really made me happy reading about old times. 

I'm 24, I live in Surrey with my other half and our two lovely little cats and I'm an office manager.

I love keeping fit, being healthy(ish)... and cooking :) 

I just read that back and it already sounds pretty dull ha! 

I'll come back when I'm up to something more exciting.